Clarity
             Touch
        My
                           Dreams
                                           Make
                            Them
                 Real
                                                          Kiss
                                       My
                                               Lips
                           And
     Make
                 Me
                           Feel

Its the fur you wrap around yourself
As you step into the void

The void of utter loneliness
Into the dark thats felt inside

Clutching shadow desperately
No one to see the scars

Nothing up above your head
Not a single ******* star

The winter winds howl ever here
And alone it keeps you warm

Bitter thoughts are ****** friends
But there far better than none

A leaf in shadow
Blown gently down darkest path
Dancing with the wind

That moment when someone looks at you and says
" you look like you need a hug "
Not knowing that would only exacerbate my disconnection  
I can feel the beat of your heart
And I still feel so far away

Ten years of pain.
Have i atoned yet?
This cant be living.
Is there hope?
Fractal terror.
Will i find my small death?
Let healing dreams come.

The creator wept
For what he had made
Tears of the desert
Crystalline expanse  
Opening our hidden eye