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Amanda Kay Burke Apr 2023
Some days feel my strength returning
Have hope I will be happy once more
But other days harder than ever
Heartache rippling through my core
Memories my bittersweet escape
Just wish things could be how they were before...
I just miss you mom
Amanda Kay Burke Apr 2023
I find myself bowing underneath great weight
Dripping anxious regret
Sipping old memories sweeter than sugar
Useless dreams have all gone quiet
World colder than felt before
Through fingers slipping like sand
Do not do anything but sleep and eat
Speaking words nobody seems to understand
My sole escape is through memories of yesterday
How I cope with the grief of living without your touch
Sympathetic whispers not helping to soothe this agony
Head spinning in circles because this torture is too much
Amanda Kay Burke Mar 2023
I see myself through silent eyes
As I use my pen to stifle tears
Forever smiling through the sorrow
My sadness worse than it appears
Pieces of me splintering slow
Dreams wilting like autumn leaves
Falling headfirst
Tumbling down
Unable to find a decent reprieve
Beneath the shadows cloaking my mind
Where words collide like crashing rain
Hope begins flowing like a small stream of water
And for a moment I think
"Someday I will conquer this pain"
Amanda Kay Burke Mar 2023
I'm sure you would want me to be happy
That you'd want me to smile
Joy is elusive
Cannot be caught
Pretending just isn't my style
It's just as hard as I thought it would be
Amanda Kay Burke Mar 2023
Snow falls heavy on head of Earth
Weight added as this mighty rock spins
Might be spring according to the calendar
Icy powder covers the dancing tree limbs
March choreographing slow routine
Time taken to feel sun's warm glow
Movements meticulously placed
We patiently wait for greenery to grow
Each morning rises giving way to new roots
Relying on heat that stays out of sight
Looking forward to the colorful weeks ahead
Good weather to melt the frozen cloak of white
Why is it snowing outside? **** Alaskan spring...
Amanda Kay Burke Mar 2023
Evening sky reflects truth
The glass surface of blank faces
Soldiers marching this war called life
Shame carried to fill the empty spaces
Through lonesome days we wander
Night dark enough to render sight blind
If we let light in we would find rest
The dreams freed of fear plaguing unconscious mind
Undefined weaknesses steadily simmer
Close in proximity to my soul
Gravity of all the success I'm failing to achieve
Larger than that of a massive black hole
Every time I attempt to win I lose
Born with poor coordination and aim
I decided I won't bother embarrassing myself
It is easier not even playing the game
Amanda Kay Burke Mar 2023
(HOOK):
I stand here waiting for you all the time
Hope you recognize before I fall apart
The one question staying on my mind
Is why you keep playing with my heart?
And I've been waiting for a long long time
Sometimes I wonder what made me start
The one question staying on my mind
Is why you keep playing with my heart?

(VERSE 1):
I do not really know just what I'm gonna do
Moving on but eyes close and all I see is you
I do not know why I can't let go of the love we knew
Each night I'm kept up by the image of your eyes so blue
Tell me why it is you I can't get out my brain?
Thought a lot about it and I really can't explain
The way you got thoughts on lock
Mind caught in chains
No longer sure if I'm in love or if I'm just insane
You promised me I'd never have to be alone
Why am I here standing on my own?
Counting on both hands chances I have blown
Figured you of all people would understand though

(HOOK)

(VERSE 2):
Staring at phone
Begging it to ring
To hear that sound again I would give anything
Your voice speaking my name
Even if in a scream
Rather hear you angry here than sweeter in some distant dream
That's the only scene ever get to see your face
Your cold shoulder really put me in my place
Never without your love before you said you needed space
Now I'm realizing you're someone I cannot replace
Running round in circles
Living for thrill of the chase
Believing I can catch you if I pick up my pace
Can't accept days I bravely stayed were all a waste
Need something to show besides moments I cannot erase

(HOOK)
Sung to the tune of Acting Up by G-Eazy
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