let me tell you about a kid I used to know
he always thought it was his time to go
up up and away to a place he didn't even understand
but he knew it was better than his own land

because all the other kids
we're too busy making jokes
to realize the one kid who needed love the most
the one kid that walked home alone
caught his breath as he looked down at his phone
to an empty screen
no texts, no calls
he just wanted to have it all, you see -

you can't force happiness on someone who's depressed
you can't make him wake up, get ready and dressed
just to send him to a school where he stands by himself
he tucks his work of art under a shelf

embarrassed by what he has done
he weeps as he wonders what his dad would've thought of his son
he looks to the sky hoping dads watching down
but the moment is ruined with a loud sound

his mother yells
her voice compelling his sorrows
he apologizes for being a mistake
but really she's the one whos been fake
as she beats him on the head
he falls to his bed
and falls deeply into a sleep he won't remember

because of all the drugs
he feels his dad start to tug him
from down below
to up above

and as his wrists start to bleed
he begins to read the suicide note he has written
and as he stares at the sky
he says his last goodbyes
to a place he has made clear of good riddance

Another year, another tear,
Another night with a six pack of beer.
It's not getting easier, but it's not hard
to think about you and all of these scars.

I'd say that I miss you, but that's a lie
It's the thought of a mother that makes me cry.
You gave me this life, and that's where it ends.
Then you ran off to shoot up with your friends.

Maybe this year, I'll let go of this hate
to forgive and forget, it's never too late.
But I'll never forget because I can't recall
what exactly made you a mother at all.

You should've been there when I needed you most
But you came and went like a phantom, a ghost.
I tell myself it was just all the drugs
that made you reject your childrens' love.

We all took it different, but exactly the same
In the fact it's too hard to even utter your name.
We don't talk about it, we just hold it in
because these are the cards, the hand we were given.

Truth be told, I don't know what I'd change
Not knowing the difference if you had stayed.
Did you know then, like I know now
That you leaving would be better somehow?

It made me stronger, almost makes me smile
but even Atlas needs a break once in a while.
I have to convince myself you didn't leave ME
You just ran away from your responsibility.

I shouldn't take it personal, but the cut is so deep
and this mountain I'm climbing is getting so steep.
But I've made it this far all by myself
To the point I'm ashamed to ask anyone for help

I'd say that I love you, but that's a lie too
How can I love someone I barely knew?

That's really what gets me the most
I never got to hide under your coat
Never got to hear you sing
Every once in a while I'd hear the phone ring
Or I'd get a letter, or some silly card
Covering the past or about your yard

But you never told me the truth
"I'm sorry that I walked out on you"

Dark souls.
Eyes half closed-
A melody from the river.
Whispered softly,
The tune comes to me,
And I shiver.

The doves asleep tonight,
The devil owns this night.
Sing this song for the trodden.
For we refuse to be forgotten.

A vision of perfection under moonless skies
And in their hearts but hopes and dreams
Numerous as the stars up high
Disappears as he holds them,into unlit stream...

In the bright sky-light of a moonless night 
When shadows dance on darkened sand
When loudest words swim in soundless sight 
In waves of water, on waves of land

Twilights last rose gave up its golden dust
As nightingales at large, bereft of voice
The yellow-red orb of the sun grew cold in the dusk
And humanity forgot, gave up its choice

And still he chased his flagrant dreams
Bleeding soles, he ran, burnt fingers still held
Heart ache and disappointment he passed in reams
The insanity of desire, none could mend.

And in his madness he found peace
And in his dreams a quiet solace
When fear and joy mingle, love and hate released
Where life is lived with no thought for the debased

On he walked on a thousand mile road
A thousand mile was walked, was none
On he walked with a hundred tonne load
A hundred tonne he carried as none

With no end in sight an end was found
A sightless silence, a visionary tune
Where the air was earth, where ocean-ground
When water could start and oil put off all fumes

With a vision of perfection under moonless sky
And in their hearts but hopes and dreams
Numerous as the stars up high
Reappear as he holds them,from moonlit stream...