Pain, pain go away
And don't come back the other day
I don't want to see your face again
I don't want to play with you again

Pain, pain go away
You're ruining my day
All I want is to be gay
Please don't come the other day

Those words which carelessly slips
As if natural, through those lips
How dare you so nonchalantly
Say the words 'I love you' to me
Your words have stricken me
Giving me delight and vulnerability
You're safe yet so dangerous
You make me eager and nervous
Every moment with you is an adventure
Bringing out my weakness yet making me secure
I love how you're confusing and exciting
Also how you're incomprehensibly enticing
But I fear my vulnerability
And your complete unpredictability
You're capable of leaving me broken and sore
I love risks but I've never been like this before
Entrusting myself is terrifying
Because of this present longing
For your reassurance that you'll stay
That you'll stand by, 'come what may'
I despise the idea of vulnerability
But the thought of losing you kills me
So permit me to get used to and be addicted
To the feeling of being vulnerable and protected
Be my strength and be a man of your word
Mean the 'I love you' that's unlike anything I've already heard

To have met a stranger
To remain strangers
You never said 'I love you'
But you made me feel you loved me too
For a stranger, you were my favorite
You always would be, I thought of it
We're so close yet lightyears apart
Thank you for making me realize I have a heart
Started as one
Back from where it has begun
A stranger who walked a path of two
And a writer who can finally bid adieu

Hindi mo ba alam na ako'y nasasaktan,

Sapagkat hindi ko makalimutan ang mga pinagdaanan,

Palimos naman ng pagtingin mo,

Bigyan mo ako kahit na kapiraso.

Ni minsa'y hindi mo tinanong kung ano ang lagay ko,
Pagkaing mga niluto mo ay hindi mo hinahain sa harap ko,

Lumaki akong may hinanakit sa buong mundo,

Kung tutuusin, itong lahat ay kasalanan mo.

Kung minahal mo lang sana ako at tinanggap,

Hindi ka na sana nahihirapang magpanggap,

Sa ibang tao kapag ika'y nakaharap,

Walang bakas ng kahit na anong pangyayaring masaklap.

Ang tanong ko palagi'y bakit binuhay mo pa ako?
Gayong palagi mo namang ipinadarama na hindi mo ako ginusto,

Kahit anong galing, kahit na anong pagbida ang gawin,

Pipikit ka upang hindi mo ako mapansin.

Hindi mauubos ang aking mga bakit,

Dahil sa kabila ng lahat ay mahal kita kahit na anong sakit,

Sa aki'y ipukol mo ang lahat ng iyong galit,

Sasaluhin ko ang hinaing sa mundo **** mapait.

parang paskong walang pamilya

parang sabaw na walang asin

parang punong walang dahon

parang gabing walang bituin

Some days I can't write
I won't write. takes
too much heart
too much sacrifice
too much sorting through places of  my mind
I swore I'd let alone, leave be

let me be
leave me be
alone

then,
no.
Fight. Alone is dangerous

alone is an open door
alone is locking yourself in with a dragon
so I will pick up first,
my heart
then my courage
then my fingers

though cut up
and open
bleeding rivers

I will then pick up my pen
and write.

there is still so much more I need to tell you.

m hmm hmmhmm hmm
the tune is yours to carry
in this wounded city with its
cr    a    cked        ribcage
that is trying to hold its heart the same

stillbreathing, still breathing


m hmm hmmhmm hmm
gawing sa 'yo ang himig na ito
sa isang bayang dumudugo
kanyang tadyang may  la  m a   t
ngunit nais pa ring hawakan ang puso

humihingapa, humihinga *pa