The beauty I speak
Is not the beauty of me
The beauty that leaks
Is not the beauty I weep.

I'm sorry I lost you trying to find me.
I'm sorry I lost myself trying to find me.
I'm sorry my love hurt you.
But,
I'm even sorrier that my love destroyed me.
I'm sorry because I'm still lost.
Most of all...
I'm sorry you lost you, thinking that you found me.

Why has my heart grown numb to you?
Why does it feel like it's blocked out?
My mind sees you but it still doesn't.
Having to hear you build that brick wall and never tear it down.
Why has my heart grown numb to you?
This mind of mine is so full of life but this heart of mine won't let it.
I've grown numb the people around me.
I've grown numb to the spirit within me.
My heart is confidently lost and it doesn't feel the need to be found.
It's not hiding.
Captivating my soul only to capture it and keep it as it's prisoner.
When will it stop feeling so numb?
Only the ticking time bomb invisible to the visible holds the answer.
My mind has become invisible to my heart.
Leaving it behind lost wondering why?
Why leave me lost in my thoughts?
Asking this empty cold place
When will you come back?
The questions I would ask this still numb heart.

Confined by the walls that protect me.
Confined by the walls of society.
I wish i could just fly.
Spread my wings and go wherever they can carry me.
A pretty bird only needs a push to leave.
But what if it's never pushed?
Always stuck with a burden of being the best and never feeling like it
Truly and Just Simply
Lived.