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Justin Sep 2018
You managed to get me to stop waiting

How does it feel

Did it feel great

As I succumb into madness

As you plunge a blade deeper into my heart

With only a few sets of words

I have gone mad
I used to love flowers
now I despise them
Due to a flower girl
planting seeds
and making me
choke on those flowers
as they bloom
Justin Sep 2018
It seems like I can't stop this unhealthy way of coping

The way that requires a blade embedded deep withing my skin
I still despise myself what's new
Justin Aug 2018
Another night
With a stained pillow
This time with tears

As I breakdown in sorrow
I hope for the best
The person you're with

Will give you the love
I never gave to you
In our time together

So please don't
Apologise anymore
As it breaks me even more

To see you hate yourself
Just breaks the remaining pieces
Of the heart I have
I'm glad you told me
And I hope that person
Gives you the love I never gave you
Justin Aug 2018
It seems self harm became my new coping mechanism
When the pain that is delivered to my wrists
As the blade slowly slides down on it
I feel like I forget all the pain and sorrows I have

The stress from all these problems I deal with
Have a common solution withing all of them
Love? Bleed, Stressed? bleed, Crippling darkness
that surrounds my world
Just bleed

It is not a normal way of coping
But the pain surely makes me forget
About all these things that just seems
To be bothering me for a while

So please excuse me
While I deal with more problems
In the best way I can
With a sharp blade on the skin of my body
Please dont do this at home
Im seriously just ****** in the head right now
  Aug 2018 Justin
Katelynn
Someday you’ll love you.
From the sparkle in your eye,
To the pitch of your laugh,
Even the color of your hair.

You will love every part,
From every wrinkle,
To every crinkle,
Every part of you.

But they will try to tear you down,
To make you frown,
To make you think you’re not worth it.

But darling you listen to me.

From the way you walk,
To the way you talk,
You will be mocked,
But don’t you listen.

From your weight,
To your height,
You are all wonderful to me.

Maybe one day you’ll see,
The beauty I see.
The way you were made,
So beautifully.

But until then,
Do not forget,
On how true beauty,
Comes from within.
I hope one day that you love you the way you deserve. You are worth it ❤
Justin Aug 2018
I still suffer until now
Ever since that night
I'm still a wreck

The pain in my wrists
Feels like its growing
Much worst than before

How much more
Do i have to suffer
To answer that

How much damage
Have I given
To her

Only once I've
Suffered enough
Only then

I may finally rest
It hurts even more so
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