The rain has come
With his beautiful dawn.
I'm waiting you to get home,
Every single day this heart hurted by thorn.

You never show up,
But I never give up.
This heart has been covered up
By the thorn that always grow up.

Finally, you came
With no shame
Saying my name.
You think love is a game.
You claim that you won't be the same.

I won't blame you,
For everything you've done to me.
You dont have to pursue,
Cause I dont want to be like I'm not me.

I know that we can not be
any version of us
will just end with shattered hearts
and missing pieces

I tell myself I am happy
to have a friend like him
someone to share poems with
to share ideas with

I tell my friends
that I don't want to be with him
that it could simply never be
him and I will never work

But every time he leaves
I feel an emptiness
in my chest
a hollow part of me

He fills this void
In a way I have never felt before
and even though I say no
my heart is screaming yes

So I quietly pursue a relationship
I know will destroy me
just so I can feel whole
If only for a minute

Dreams slip away
Fogged glasses
Wind chimes sound
Leaves start to crumble
Wind under feathers shriek
Thrills of the splinters
Each mask worn differently
Those who seek will never find

to the only one who can rest my anxious heart
to the only one who can quiet my foolish thoughts
to the Father that created me
knowing I would turn my back on him
to the one whose arms were open when I returned
to the sweet promises you have always kept
to the one whose pursuit was steady in my wandering
you're the only place I can make my home
so even in the uncertainty I will dwell in you
and I am not sure of almost anything
but I am sure that wherever I go, you are with me

Come over, I'll show you my world.
My world's designed to grasp self-worth
And to embed its purpose in my aging soul.
It's made to rotate and shift from light to dark,
another chance to redeem and to leave a mark.
A thousand heavens flock into one star
And the star smiles subtly at the dying heart.
Obsidian chains coil around the beating heart
and my world is choked but the star
keeps smiling and my world keeps going.
I give and sustain, it lives and maintains.
I will not die in vain because I am
ready for obsidian chains.

Where will I end up? Somewhere
Will I be lost when I get there? Lost
Where am I suppose to be? There
Will it take all that I've got? Cost
Will I know when I am there? Yes
But should I continue? Go
What will i do? Impress
Do I ever settle for less? No
Who will be there? You
And with me? New
Adventures for all the new? True
A new life that will lead to what? Pursue
Pursue things that lead me where? Home
But what should I continue to do? Roam

Elizabeth, I,don’t love you,
But perhaps I could grow to,
If one had the confidence to pursue,
You,
Perhaps beautiful connections would bloom,
Perhaps,
I like your name,
And your face,
And your frame,
And your taste in music is at the very least interesting,
But sending that message to kick it all off?
No thank you and I’m sorry,
To my alternate future self in which I married you girl,
Because I have cut myself off,
It always happens,
So, don’t take it personally.

These three useless words
bang against my teeth,
guarded by my lips they want to be released;

I once swallowed my thoughts to keep them inside,
But it seems my naïve heart has kept them alive.

I'm scared they might escape with every passing smile. I need you and want you to be mine.

We're all looking for a piece to complete the missing one
Searching it for someone
Thinking that it will make me whole
That they have the piece to fill the hole.

But...
I'm confused
I'm troubled
Where to find that thing
That always makes noises like a bell's ring

Pictures already on my mind
But can't see the way to find
Blurry..
Foggy..
Like someone is blocking
To make me see the whole thing.

Thinking..
Sweating..
I'm losing.
Shall I continue?
Thinking that it's already due?
Or
Shall I stop?
Thinking that I might make it on top?
But clearly, can't do it
Because someone has to make it
That it's not only my problem
But it's also them.

Piece that is very important
That makes life significant
We have to find the missing
Or else we are all lies believing

We have to see the truth
In the fog that alters the route
Because this is the only way
To achieve a peaceful everyday
In the world full of deceit
That anyone can't be neat.

We can through it
If we all want it.
Just don't be double minded
So you won't get puzzled.

I Will Pursue
I love you and will die in your love
This is what I am determined to do
I am under you influence just now
This is my stance which I will pursue

No power on earth can ****** you
My beloved I am of your color now
Hand in hand walk thru and thru
My innocent sweet wonderful dove

You are a stream of water I am drop
Existence of drop can just associate
Take me to heart or just **** and chop
My love you are my fortune or fate

Col Muhammad Khalid Khan
Copyright 2016 Golden Glow