The ssa sdrawkcab & ǝpᴉsdn uʍop
Transpansexual king (King Clown),
The reprobate-minded ice cream ****
Who's reprobate unto every good work,
Whose middle name is Robinette,
Is President Xi's personal pet.

the cracks in the mirror
start to show
makeup morning
                              clown
becomes the show
unrecognisable face
made up to be
someone you know
still laughing
just not sure at what anymore

Written spells and locked doors.
Mental dispels and cursed flaws.
Aching tensions and delusional illusions.
Illusive dreams and paths to explore.
Wide awake, like a bat...
My mind is on high alert, it never goes to sleep.
Constant mental chatter, an over-active mental state.
It is eternal and I live in the misery and learn to control it.
Sometimes I do, sometimes I don't.
My mind is it's own person, it's own monster.
It opposes different ideologies, beliefs, and conflicts, into one.
I question my mind and talk to myself like a mad clown.
Conversating in my own form.

Boundless amount of wit and seedless unpleasant jokes.
Dark and uncensored, explicit and provocative.
A ***** tongue with **** lips to make you want to play with me more.

But am I really what you desire?
Or have you created your own storm.
Do I reflect you?
Or do you just reflect yourself through me.

Smile through the misery, you can't die with a serious face.
Stitch up the corners and pull it up high so you never have to cry again.
Maybe I am you, or maybe I am just suffering through my own madness.
Maybe my madness has become someone else.
My actions of contradictory displays.
But you love me though...

Lets play

There was a guy who acted the clown at college?
Because he thought it was cool to be that way?
But he really liked a girl called Bev Granville and hated;
When everybody called her Open All Hour's from the British sit com Open All Hour's?
He said her name's Bev?
So there was a guy who acted the clown at college?
Because he thought it was cool to be that way?
But really he joked with the girl to try and make her laugh?
But really that guy just wanted to say Bev?
I think I love you?
So do you feel the same?
But just being your friend was a joy as well.
Just sitting with you was like being in heaven itself?
She was beautiful outwardly, but more importantly she was inwardly beautiful as well; so she was never a mean girl or thought she was better than the rest.
But saying I think I love you would have been too much of a risk for this clown.
So saying he thinks he loves you in front of other lads was too much of a risk for him; this was just in case you didn't feel the same; you see his image mattered too much to him?
He loved his time with you in math's class and study time with you in the college library?
But I think she only liked him like a good friend in honesty?
They were good friends in truth.
He hated the week she was off sick from college that week seemed to last forever?
Our time together were the best two year's of his life.
So he had to make jokes to just talk to you?
Yes that clown was me,
Yes that clown was me,
Yes that clown was me!

all around me are couples,
walk around,
frightened and clinging
to each other
clowns jumping out,
chain saws screeching on

paralyzed in fear
crying in extreme anger
everything in me
screams to have control
yet I keep

failing