War is when it costs blood for a drop of oil;
and echoes of gun-shots replace sound of peace,
when people die for handful of soil,
and it feels like it is never gonna cease.

When it paints the world red;
and colors seem to be stolen by shadow,
when every mother’s son is on deathbed,
and people still refuse to make a bow.

Then begins the end of conscience;
leaving regret and guilt locked within,
making us helpless to survive the existence,
and we feel like being ruled as puppets of skin.

When the end comes and it chokes the breath;
and people dare to come out with blood-shot eyes,
when it fears to stand even in right direction;
your heart screams for wrong decision and denies.

When it takes courage to laugh;
and its seems hard to begin again,
when the end divides heart into two,
and it leaves you to die in pain.

Then you beg for another chance;
and time laughs like a cruel king,
but there is no option to back off;
and we feel like being ruled as puppets of skin.

© Shreya ♥

I remember when you walked in with your guitar;
I tried reaching you but you were standing too far,
I tried screaming your name;
but I was afraid that it could be the end of this game.

I locked my eyes at you and you fake me a smile;
I sigh and lost my mind for a while,
I turned my eyes off hiding my shame;
and got lost to decide whom to blame?

At the end of the day you said goodbye;
boy; it was so hard to leave and I sigh,
I can’t forget those 3 minutes when you came;
against my will I am going home again.

Now you are a part of my every dream;
soon you’ll conquer my realm,
what do I do with my heart?
I can’t go back to the start.

I look for you every time, and I try to work;
but every time I fail and I feel like ****,
and I just can’t stop to keep myself from thinking of you;
and the tragedy is that you have no clue.

But I love it when you pass next through me;
I feel butterflies and you just can’t see,
I can’t forget those 3 minutes when you came;
against my will I am going home again.

© Shreya ♥

I stared at you and you caught me;
I froze there for a while,
you smiled over me, I got melt;
and I too faked you a smile.

You got me completely lost;
I moved on and pretended to be okay,
I acted completely insane;
every time I tried something to say.

People ask me are you okay?
and at my back they pat,
they ask me are you in love?
I smile and say nothing like that.

Even though I doubt it;
but I donno what to name this?
I am confused and outta my mind;
for all the time I try and guess.        

Imma make an attempt;
to ask you to explain,
do you feel the same?
or temme whom to complain?

‘cause people ask me what’s going on?
I find myself speechless when they chat,
they doubt me if I am in love?
I smile and say nothing like that.

© Shreya ♥

Day before yesterday I bet my life;
one fine day I’ll win this strife,
so I kept my fingers crossed;
and in this hope whole day passed.

In unpredictable thoughts I was lost so deep;
I rolled all night and it kept me away from sleep,
yesterday I found my hope wasn’t real;
it tore me apart with no chance to heal.

Oh.. it wasn’t real and it broke me through;
but still it seems so hard to let it go,
and I was stupid to have fantasy hope;
like I was watching through kaleidoscope.

I can see my hope fading away;
like rainbow fades into the sky,
but still I’ll try to hold it back;
no matter if it gets me off the track.

I am scared to hope again;
‘cause once it broke me into the pain,
it aches like pulse of blood under the wound;
and I just can’t take it anymore around.

Oh.. it hurts when it heals too;
but it gets me little hope; so new,
may be I am stupid to have fantasy hope;
for I have reached to the end of the rope.

© Shreya ♥

When I fall, nobody comes to pick me up;
people stare at me and laugh and laugh,
they elbow me out but I pick myself up and stumble;
and still people expect me to be humble.

I just pretend to be good;
why shouldn’t I if they could?
they play games, they lie, they flatter;
and every time they do, I shatter.

I don’t wear heart on my sleeve;
even when I tell truth they don’t believe,
So I stay quiet, I stay alone;
and they think I am a heart stone.


I can’t be sorry, for I donno how to flaunt;
I just can’t be the way they want,
I have no regrets for the way I am;
So I chuck it when people start to blame.

Don’t temme what to do;
‘cause I already know,
all I ask them is to mind their business;
but they just can’t, I guess.

Let it be, I just don’t care;
now it doesn’t matter for me if they stare,
they won’t understand me till am gone;
so why do I care for such heart stone(s)?

© Shreya ♥

There is something that makes me feel sad;
I donno what but it hurts so bad,
I just wanna be alone and cry out;
I guess this is what life’s all about.

Tears do cover my eyes;
they come from where my pain lies,
it completely drains my tears;
and surrounds me with unknown fears.

I donno what is wrong;
is it something I shouldn’t but I came along?
I know I’d promised I’ll smile forever;
but I’ve to ask, cry me a river.

Bring me back to the life again;
all my joy away from the pain,
I donno what to do of the promises; I kept?
so make me cry out till no more tears are left.

I keep rolling in the bed;
nobody cares about the tears I shed,
why then it bothers me?
I feel stupid for all this to be.

What do I do?
It tears my heart through,
every time I think I’ll never;
but I’ve to ask, cry me a river.

© Shreya ♥

I dream and dare to dream more;
people laugh and I pretend I don’t hear,
I walk the paths of my dream;
with handful of hope and unshared fear(s).

Its been great to try all the time;
rather blaming the things and all,
I may lose and get hurt but;
I’ll pick myself up every time I’ll fall.

Life is a game like Peek-A-Boo;
All we need to do is just watch it through.

I wanna know how it feels like to win;
being a failure every time I paid price,
I have made mistakes but learned from it;
it all happened when I tried twice.

Its all about taking chances;
so I keep my eyes on every chance I get,
to make the best of it can be and;
to realize the things, in dreams I met.

Life is a game like Peek-A-Boo;
All we need to do is to be ready to go.

© Shreya ♥

A man dressed in red and gold,
in front of the bull with fears, all sold;
as the mighty bull enters the ring,
yellow and magenta cape starts to swing.

Trumpet sounds; he throws a spear at the bulls back,
with the hopes so high, he never lack(s);
at another trumpet he removes his hat,
and makes a bow dedicating the bull’s death.

He dances with the bull,
and the audience there cheers and adore;
he keeps playing on and on,
like a true hero -the Matador.

He waves a muleta, daring the bull to charge,
both keep eyes locked at each other, open so large;
now he stands at ten feets from the bull,
holding espada to stab at bull’s back to null.

The bull falls and dies,
staring the bull-fighter’s eyes;
and audience cheers the victory of the man,
waving white handkerchiefs at the end of the game.

He is awarded dead bull’s tail or hoof or ears,
people there lift him as he reached the stadium door;
he holds a trophy saying victory against his fears;
like a true hero -the Matador.

*I have been reading about the Matador since a week, and it has become an obsession now to know more about the Matador.

© Shreya ♥

After a long time I saw the sunset in the sky;
felt the wind passing by,
witnessed the birds flying back to the nest;
and I walked the empty streets hoping for the best.

I switched off my phone,
just to be in the realm of my own;
and I took the un-trodden road,
to escape the big town crowd.

Echoes of silence, I perceive;
and I just had a beautiful eve.

Shining dew drops on the grass blades;
looks beautiful until the light fades,
with the bare feet I walk the meadow;
accompanied by my shadow.

I return home with tired soul;
near yet far from my goal,
the Crescent moon holding stars;
relieves all my hidden scars.

All this brings me the joy I believe;
and I just had a beautiful eve.

© Shreya ♥

We haven’t talked since long time though;
I miss you bad and you don’t know,
what I feel inside, I don’t show;
‘cause I just can’t afford to let you go.

You come in my dreams every single night;
like sunshine making my world so bright,
I feel like everything is gonna be alright;
but I wake up to reality, I have to fight.

I know you don’t feel the same;
and I have to take all the blame,
for all the time you run me through;
so I am gonna find another you.

Oh! Yeah another you;
Someone who loves me too.

You might think I am going crazy;
you might be right ‘cause I may be,
but you don’t know baby;
letting you go isn’t so easy.

I know am gonna be fine;
though it may take some time,
since you are no longer mine;
I’ll tryna live sublime.

I’ll carry on laughing out loud;
I’ll pretend like am on ninth cloud,
‘cause I have to choose somebody new;
So I am gonna find another you.

Oh! Yeah another you;
Someone who loves me too.

© Shreya ♥

I might be sad for you have been gone;
oh! it was hard but am trying to live alone,
‘cause I know I have to, somehow;
may be tomorrow or may be right now.

So am trying to erase all the memories;
saved somewhere in my heart; yet to release,
all those letters and diaries am gonna burn;
along with the photographs I gotta return.

I just don’t care ‘bout what people will say,
yea you heard it right; am gonna be okay.

Here is all your stuff, do hell with your keys;
I won’t come back; no matter if you go on knees,
its over now and I won’t let it start again;
so don’t come to me, acting like insane.

Go after those ******* like you have always done;
I  bet I’ll be happy in the world of my own,
I wish stupid Cupid won’t catch me anymore;
‘cause I have just locked the door.

I’ll be happy as I was, for sure one fine day,
yea you heard it right; am gonna be okay.

© Shreya ♥

Darkness is all I can see;
in and all around me,
as I open my eyes there is nothing to find;
as I close it, all I am is –blind.

All I can feel is to cry for all my confessions;
with bloodshot eyes I look for all my lost passions,
for there is no more to give away;
I am a puppet of skin no meaning left to pray.

Numb is all I can feel even when I fall;
all I look like is like a picture on the wall,
lost in darkness, crawling towards light –so weak;
screaming all my sorrows out, dragged to black.

Tears don’t fall, am choked within;
looks like am paying for all my sin(s),
counting my days left to pass;
closing my eyes, putting my fingers cross(ed).

What do I do, where do I go?
darkness around passes by so slow;
looks like it will take lifetime to fade;
and I long for light –so bad.

I crawl every single inch towards light;
so weak but am trying to fight,
I wish I could get a chance to sneak;
but the shades of dark drag me to black.

© Shreya ♥

I remember the eyes that used to stare me;
the dimples that used to get deeper with smile,
I remember the way you used to walk around;
all that used to make my world happy for a while.

Donno how we parted our ways so far;
time passed you changed but haven’t changed I,
you must be happy in the world of your own;
but I still feel the same, I just cannot deny.

And my heart bleeds like skin between thorn(s);
I feel so bad, hurt to the core like lovelorn.

Why you gotta go, so far away;
it still gives me butterflies to think of you,
I guess it doesn’t make sense to stay;
‘cause I know you never felt the way I do.

So temme, how to get you back;
‘cause I long for you all day long,
is there any option left for me to choose;
or you are someone who to me does not belong.

I wish somebody could be there to make me warn;
before I fell for you, hurt to the core like lovelorn.

© Shreya ♥

I just wanna be alone;
in the world of my own,
away from people –heart stone;
I know I gotta reap what I’ve sown.

I wanna escape somehow;
and travel those untrodden ways ,
where nobody knows me;
and I’ll spend some nomadic days.

I walk the paths of loneliness;
away from the world –so brute,
I donno which way to go now;
and I follow the shadows of solitude.

Nobody cares, neither care I;
and it doesn't hurt me anymore,
‘cause I know how to deal with it;
I don’t let it reach my core.

Its been so long, nobody asked ‘bout me;
why do I care ‘bout the people around?
I gotta be happy with what I am;
I’ll too forget them like I’ve never known.

So I will keep going on;
against the world –so rude,
It doesn’t exist for me anymore;
and I follow the shadows of solitude.

© Shreya ♥

Its 2 a.m. in morning and I;
wanna hug my teddy and cry,
looking at your photographs  in my phone;
lost in your memories, left all alone.

It hurts to know that you;
love her and she loves you too,
do I ever cross your mind;
or it was only me who got blind?

I wish I would have never met you;
I could forget you like I never knew,
it cuts me to the core the way I feel;
for I fell outta love, never gonna heal.

I must walk outta your life;
am gonna give up this strife,
I can’t take this anymore;
‘cause you were never mine to adore.

What should I expect from you to be;
you don’t even know this part of me,
we talk out of the blues like strangers do;
for me its like a beginning –so new.

But I know its not gonna work;
I will continue to act like ****,
its hard to pass these love sick days;
for I fell outta love, gonna part my ways.

© Shreya ♥

There is a part of me I gotta explore;
it resides in me but yet so unknown,
some where it exists I don’t know;
I wonder if it is a shadow of my own?

It takes me to the untrodden paths;
making me walk on broken glass,
with bleeding feet I travel the road;
losing count, how long left to pass.

Tears refuse to come out;
smile refuses to make the curve deep,
it hurts to the core to act neutral;
I am so complicated, away from sleep.

I have fallen thrice but who is counting;
I am busy in walking too fast,
can’t see anybody around me;
am I the first or the one who came last?

Mood swings have become neighbours now;
they knock my door now and then,
I just pretend I am not home;
I know they’re gonna leave, don’t know when.

I feel like having albatross around my neck;
chocking me deep to the core,
I don’t know what else to wish for;
for I am so complicated, hurt so sore.

© Shreya ♥

Coming home late at night;
playing music of my choice,
feeling all alone but its alright;
and repeating favourite lines twice.

Though the weather is nice;
but it rains all the time inside,
I gotta swim outta my sorrows;
and hope my regrets to divide.

Call me stupid for all I’ve done;
I can’t scream loud for this pain,
its just gonna be okay, I know;
I wanna have a cup of novacaine.

No one is here to break the silence;
time seems to be the last grain of sand,
what the hell they gotta do of all this;
all we’ll need is a few feet of land.

Why to complicate things around;
why to run for what won’t exist long,
it grieves me to the core to think;
they pretend to be right when they’re wrong.

So many time I’ve been broken;
I just wanna go back to be seven again,
take me to the flashback of joy;
or get me a cup of novacaine.

© Shreya ♥

After a long time I joined my hands;
and went on my knees,
made a prayer to Lord;
followed by an Amen and a please.

The flashback runs me through;
my whole life for what I have done,
missed opportunities and regret;
locks me in the chains of its own.

It chokes me deep to the core;
I wonder if I can get an Amen once more.

I donno where am going;
temme which way to choose,
for I know I gotta miles to go;
and I have no option to lose.

Everything is gonna be fine they say;
I donno how, for I am feel like Zombie,
if you are not drunk, answer it all;
or let me whatever I gonna be.

It bleeds my heart so sore;
I wonder if I can get an Amen once more.

© Shreya ♥

I saw you today laughing with her;
I know you caught me staring you,
you’ve moved on and I am still there;
This ain’t no surprise you’ve got somebody new.

Must be happy with your girl;
for she is beautiful; ‘am happy for you,
don’t care ‘bout me, am gonna be okay;
‘cause I have some of my friends who care me too.

Would have been stupid to think;
we’re gonna be together again,
how stupid of me to think this way;
I gotta forget you, getcha outta my brain.

I’ll buy a ring and flaunt it;
to pretend I am happy in my world too,
for some stupid reason I gotta do this;
so that it doesn’t anymore bother you.

I can feel the emptiness around me;
that grows everyday around,
I gotta learn live with it;
and get my feet back to the ground.

Sounds stupid to tell;
I imagined two of us to be again,
I know its not gonna work now;
so I gotta forget you, no more insane.

© Shreya ♥

Going back to the time when I was five;
happy in the world of my own,
I was moms’s doll and dad’s princess;
had a sweet home in a small town.

Tearing pages for paper planes;
making paper boats for the rain,
that’s where my heaven was;
can I get those days back again.

I have grown big now, came far away;
and left my home behind,
gotta go back in time when I was a child;
all these are pieces of me, I gotta find.

Wanna go back to the time when dad;
bought me my favourite toys;
and took me to the festive fairs,
I wanna live again all those days.

My white teddy is lying in a corner;
turned pale and covered with dust,
I don’t have time to play with it;
all my toys got old and turned to rust.

Time sweeps as the pendulum swings;
it got me so big that I,
can’t live my childhood again;
all these are pieces of me, I pick and sigh.

Going back to the time when I was five;
happy in the world of my own,
I was moms’s doll and dad’s princess;
had a sweet home in a small town.

Tearing pages for paper planes;
making paper boats for the rain,
that’s where my heaven was;
can I get those days back again.

I have grown big now, came far away;
and left my home behind,
gotta go back in time when I was a child;
all these are pieces of me, I gotta find.

Wanna go back to the time when dad;
bought me my favourite toys;
and took me to the festive fairs,
I wanna live again all those days.

My white teddy is lying in a corner;
turned pale and covered with dust,
I don’t have time to play with it;
all my toys got old and turned to rust.

Time sweeps as the pendulum swings;
it got me so big that I,
can’t live my childhood again;
all these are pieces of me, I pick and sigh.

Going back to the time when I was five;
happy in the world of my own,
I was moms’s doll and dad’s princess;
had a sweet home in a small town.

Tearing pages for paper planes;
making paper boats for the rain,
that’s where my heaven was;
can I get those days back again.

I have grown big now, came far away;
and left my home behind,
gotta go back in time when I was a child;
all these are pieces of me, I gotta find.

Wanna go back to the time when dad;
bought me my favourite toys;
and took me to the festive fairs,
I wanna live again all those days.

My white teddy is lying in a corner;
turned pale and covered with dust,
I don’t have time to play with it;
all my toys got old and turned to rust.

Time sweeps as the pendulum swings;
it got me so big that I,
can’t live my childhood again;
all these are pieces of me, I pick and sigh.

© Shreya ♥

Who I am so that people will care;
about me and love me in return,
I gotta buy a kerosene can;
pour it all around, let the memories burn.

It crosses my heart all the time;
I shouldn’t breathe it anymore,
there is too much to complain about
but who’s got time to hear to my core.

I gotta buy a gun, or rent it for a day;
and shoot one bullet to my heart,
just one bullet, just one bullet;
and I’ll rest in peace as I’ll depart.

Why does it bother me;
let them do whatever they wanna do,
I must leave them on their own;
and live mine too.

Gotta know who’s gonna miss me;
If no one, whom I’ve to blame,
I call it life and try to live it;
they keep on playing and call it a game.

I gotta buy a gun, or rent it for a day;
and shoot one bullet to my heart,
just one bullet, just one bullet;
and I’ll rest in peace as I’ll depart.

© Shreya ♥

‘Am gonna drive long tonight;
to a place where I am alone,
I’ll play gothic metal loud;
and turn off my phone.

The rear mirror view shows me traffic;
gonna drive till it disappears away,
till the city sleeps and lights go dim;
and buy a bottle of whisky on the way.

So don’t call me and don’t ask me why;
gonna drink till I see two moons in the sky.

Its an awesome weather now;
just wish if it could rain,
so that I can pretend I am crying;
and I cry till my tears drain.

Music is set on loop;
crowd is disappearing in rear mirror,
I guess am close to my destination;
where I could scream and no one to bother.

So don’t call me and don’t ask me why;
gonna drink till I see two moons in the sky.

© Shreya ♥

My memories in your heart;
and your raining eyes,
you kept waiting for me but;
all I gave you was excuses and lies.

You came driving to my house;
and got me roses but I,
didn’t answer your call and;
you left the roses to die.

But things have changed now;
am at your place and you’re at mine,
you’ve moved on with her and;
I’ve realized it, on the other edge of time.

Morning you woke up to my missed calls;
my unread texts that you marked delete,
I mailed you; you blocked me;
and it all went on repeat.

Temme what I’ve gotta do;
I’ll get you roses in the middle of night,
and you don’t answer my call;
now  lets end up this fight.

Oh! I know things will change;
I’ll be at your place and you’ll be at mine,
but I’ll still be right there for you;
you’ll realize it, on the other edge of time.

© Shreya ♥

I was a child when I was afraid of dark;
and the shadows around that I see,
but there was always an angel around;
who was there to take care of me.

I’ve grown up and so has become the shadow;
and the fear still resides where it used to be,
with a silent scream and whispered voice.
it echoes aloud inside me.

Every minute drags like an hour;
and I feel like a social wallflower.

Nobody can hear the scream;
they’ve got the scream of their own,
it reaches to my core, I can hear it;
but no one is there to hear mine –so alone.

I had a world of my own;
but it seems to be left behind,
I see it in the rear mirror till it disappears;
with the memories at the back of my mind.

Every minute drags to be like an hour;
and I feel like a social wallflower.

© Shreya ♥

The echoes of silence around me;
and my hopeless mute scream,
am gazing outside the window;
and wishing if it could be my realm.

An empty chair next to me;
reminds me of my loneliness,
a corner table full of pills;
makes me feel of my weakness.

Here is my life, I gotta return;
so I gotta depart before my guts churn.

There is peace and white light,
now I can feel no pain;
I can’t feel if am alive or,
am gonna die again.

Here I lie warm in the deathbed;
holding the memories in my heart,
flashback and tears follow;
as I decide to depart.

Here is my life, I gotta return;
so I gotta depart before my guts churn.

© Shreya ♥

Waking up with your dreams;
makes me slip into your memories,
you conquer my mind and;
it chills me to the bone, I freeze.  

Donno when did you got all the rights;
to reach and open my heart,
boy you play with it and mess it up;
I donno how to mend, temme where to start.

Your one thought is enough;
to drag me to wherever you are,
I may pretend I don’t know you;
but you are a dream, so far.

Every time you stare me and smile,
it makes me feel my world alright;
you are a song on my guitar;
that I like to play every night.

You are a tear in my eyes;
a whisper a smile and a sigh,
some how you complete me;
and I just can not deny.

Your one thought is enough;
to make a wish on the shooting star,
though it was not answered;
yeah you are a dream, so far.

© Shreya ♥

Hey temme do you remember me;
how is your life been since am out,
do I cross your mind even for a while;
do you still care what love is all about.

I saw you today passing by;
you were busy laughing on phone,
I wanted to call you once but;
I thought the time has gone, long gone.

You have become a stranger in my life;
I just donno what went wrong,
there is nothing left between us;
still your memories cross my heart all day long.

You donno but I try to follow you;
no matter where you go I’ll be around,
I may pretend I don’t recognize you;
but I can find you even in the crowd.

If by chance, we can talk;
I’ll answer all your question you have,
and you gotta answer mine;
and decide if you still wanna leave.

I promise I won’t spill the beans;
I’ll pretend to be a stranger to you;
it will all be between us;
all your secrets old and new.

© Shreya ♥

It kills me to say but;
you are not the one I knew,
unlike my wishes;
I’ve seen a stranger in you.

You may not agree but;
in all the ways its true,
if you don’t believe me;
ask people, they’ll tell the same too.

I remember how you came into my life;
like a wonderful pleasant surprise,
I thought you are all I want;
this is how I made my world on fleeting lies.

How can I be a fool like this?
it is hard to believe you ain’t same,
I trusted you in thousand ways;
and you played it like a game.

Time passed by and I saw the real you;
you still don’t regret being wrong,
it bothers me every day;
so I gotta write you a sad song.

I am here with broken expectations;
hurt like a victim of fools’ paradise,
I bet I’ll be happy as I was;
and for you it will be a surprise.

© Shreya ♥

Here I am in patched colorful dress;
with a red round nose and a big painted smile,
flaunting my fake expressions and people laugh;
on my joke and the way I act for a while.

The world looks dangerous from the stage;
I carry the burden of the dunce cap,
nobody looks beyond the fakes;
I know I gotta smile even if I got a slap.

I am a joker, I make people laugh;
they pay me for what I make them feel,
and I get paid to hide my sorrows;
pretending I am on my way to heal.

I may have a funny face;
and I make others laugh so deep,
but nobody makes me laugh in return;
when I am hurt and secretly weep.

They come to see me make them laugh;
a ticket and few hours is all it costs,
I laugh even without any reason;
no matter if I am going through the worst odds.

I am a joker, I make people laugh;
the day I’ll tell them my sorrows they’ll leave,
this is how this world works;
so I don’t wear my heart on my sleeve(s).

© Shreya ♥

It started as fun to see you all the time;
and turned into a secret desire so new,
which then turned into a strong hope;
and now it is a decision to be with you.

We communicate through telepathy;
but there is still something you dunno yet,
I dunno what’s there in your heart;
but this is something I am not gonna forget.

I walked the paths of love bare feet;
Roses are less and thorns are ahead,
but I gotta walk the same road;
‘cause there is no escape instead.

Is there something you wanna tell;
that burns at the back of your mind?
that makes you feel butterflies like I do;
and calling my name from behind?

I’ve started skipping my sleep;
still I dream of you all day long,
there is so much to tell you;
so I am writing you this song.

I walked the paths of love bare feet;
roses are less and thorns are ahead,
but I gotta walk the same road;
‘cause there is no escape instead.

© Shreya ♥

I run through my life;
bare feet on the sands of time,
tryna hold the best moments;
which were abysmally mine.

Past seems to be beautiful;
present is a struggle I gotta win,
future scares me to the core;
and this is the world I live in.

There were times I fought alone;
and made wishes on shooting stars,
buried in the corner of my heart;
and all they’ve given me is scars.

The distance between dreams & me;
peels my wounds to the reality,
they bleed and aches so deep;
and I try to cover it with fantasy.

Seems like I am completely lost;
and there is no way out,
I feel locked in the vicious circle;
no one comes to help and I scream loud.

I gotta get out of this;
gotta play my sorrows on guitar(s),
no matter if it tears me apart;
I gotta live with these scars.

© Shreya ♥

Here in my heart;
where you use to live,
where you rule all over;
and I surrender like a thief.

I lose my control;
as you take it all,
I go on my knees;
every time you make fall.

I wish this is just a dream;
and no more real, no more real,
but your single thought;
makes it hard to deal, hard to deal.

So I just gotta try to forget;
and pretend like we never met,
but it hurts so bad and I feel like crying;
and it makes me regret, I regret.

When I fell in dark;
you just stepped back,
without me, so rude;
leaving me crawling to the black.

I still look for you;
but you don’t give a ****,
it tears me apart;
I gotta scream out your name.

So I wish this is just a dream;
and no more real, no more real,
but your single thought;
makes it hard to deal, hard to deal.

So I just gotta try to forget;
and pretend like we never met,
but it hurts so bad and I feel like crying;
and it makes me regret, I regret.

© Shreya ♥

I just wanna walk away;
from this world and be alone,
where my shadow couldn’t chase me;
and I stay hidden in the world of my own.

I don’t wanna go back;
to the world so rude,
surrounded by fair weather *****;
‘cause it hurts to the core so brute.

I don’t wanna argue anymore;
they’ve got devil’s advocate,
they’ve got power of bribe and lie;
and I gotta be satisfied with my fantasy faith.
why is everything so complicated?
makes me feel all I am is tormented.

how do they convince themselves?
to be such a heart stone,
back stabbing and be so mean;
is what it takes to be the one.

It bleeds me to think;
the fight is the world versus me,
all I have is handful of hope;
praying for more going by my knee(s).

I don’t wanna argue anymore;
they’ve got devil’s advocate,
they’ve got power of bribe and lie;
and I gotta be satisfied with my fantasy faith.
why is everything so complicated?
makes me feel all I am is tormented.

© Shreya ♥

You ignore me.. oh;
but I keep on staring you,
to make me feel good;
your smile is just enough.

And you cut me down;
I bleed but you don’t care though,
and I still hold on;
all your memories, you know.

I am standing here, all alone;
walk away; walk away,
don’t wanna hear all your lies;
for all the times you say-ay-ay-ay.

I’ve seen the real you;
still I stick to my guns,
but you don’t give a ****;
no matter if all my gut churns.

I am content with loneliness;
but its so hard to trust,
it just couldn’t happen to me;
and all my hope turn to rust.

Still am standing here, all alone;
walk away; walk away,
don’t come around ever again;
if you’re not gonna stay-ay-ay-ay.

© Shreya ♥

It was Tuesday when we broke up;
and said goodbye in the pouring rain,
as per your last wish to me;
we promised we’ll never meet again.

Don’t wait till all my gut churns;
if you have to leave just leave,
I won’t ask you for reason;
‘cause that won’t make meaning, I believe.

Just leave and don’t look back;
we are just strangers now,
you became my habit;
I gotta get rid of, somehow.

You've stopped replying to my texts;
you don’t answer my calls,
it was always a waste of time;
like I was hitting my head against the wall(s).

Don’t worry ‘bout me;
I’ll manage without you,
hope you have a great life;
even if am not a part of it though.

Just leave and don’t look back;
we are just strangers now,
you became my habit;
I gotta get rid of, somehow.

© Shreya ♥

I had a world of my own;
and everything was almost fine,
then you came out of the blues;
and now am no more mine.

You told me you’re sick at home;
and I just came to see,
I caught you with her;
still you’re lying to me.

Am done with all your excuses;
it is not the first time you’ve done,
please don’t say you’re sorry;
don’t fool me ‘cause am not the one.
don’t say sorry if don’t mean it;
no matter what, this time I won’t believe it.

Why don’t you temme the truth;
why I have to be the last to know,
how many times I’ve gotta excuse you?
how many times I’ve gotta let it go?

When I call I find your number busy;
but you told me you are at work,
please don’t say you’re sorry;
for all the time you kept me in dark.
don’t say sorry if don’t mean it;
no matter what, this time I won’t believe it.

© Shreya ♥

You are no stranger to me;
for all the things we share,
all those moments of happiness;
and the deep breaths of despair.

Looks like I’ve strayed into a dream;
and I don’t wanna open my eyes,
wake me up when its real;
‘cause am done dealing with lies.

Too much of anything can make you sick;
and you've become my new obsession,
I wonder if it’s gonna end up like this;
or its gonna be a mutual addiction?

Feels like am lost in an empty hallway;
sometimes it scares the hell outta me,
when memories try to chase me from behind;
I run away to escape the agony.

With bloodshot eyes, I dare to see reality;
I know I’ve gotta fall till I bleed,
putting my fingers crossed;
I dare to walk this one way street.

So temme, are you gonna walk beside?
‘cause I guess you are the one,
is it my shadow who’s gotta replace you?
or its gonna be a mutual addiction?

© Shreya ♥

If you ever wanna know;
how it feels to miss somebody so close,
I will sing you this song;
and ask you to walk in my shoes.

I dunno  how, but it’s true that;
deep in my core you occupy a space,
you might not know but;
there is nobody who can replace.

You are an ache deep inside;
that lies in the middle of my heart.
it grows bigger and bigger;
like a scary hollow spot.

Everything is almost fine;
but there is a silence around;
I guess it is supposed to be there
and echoes so loud.

There is a vacuum down here;
which you haunt into,
and it scares the hell outta me;
do you feel the same I do?

You are an ache deep inside;
that divides my heart
it grows bigger and bigger;
like a scary hollow spot.

© Shreya ♥

You claim that you miss me;
and I believe you,
I know you might not sure;
and it might not be true.

Life’s been good;
and everything is just fine,
temme how are you?
as it’s been a long time.

Life’s not bad without you;
and am not that sad,
I still wanna live all new;
though something inside feels bad.

Though I’ve got a feeling;
that something is not alright,
and I am done now;
no longer wish to fight.

You’ve got your own world;
and am on my way to get mine,
whatever was there between us;
just seems to fade along with time.

Life’s not bad without you;
and am not that sad,
I still wanna live all new;
though something inside feels bad.

© Shreya ♥

Whatever is there between us;
but it’s not love that’s for sure,
you are just a friend to me;
and I guess nothing more.

Though I manage to miss you;
dunno what kinda bond we share,
of which you have a clue;
and am also not unaware.

Though I caught you staring;
you pretended like you’re not,
and I guess I knew it;
yea, right from the start.

I've figured you out boy;
no matter how much you act,
yea I know it all;
as a matter of fact.

So let’s wait for who says it first;
for we both know;
and you’re gonna be the first, I bet;
‘cause I know you won’t lemme go.

May be am wrong but it feels so right;
may be you are not the one,
and I guess I knew it;
yea, right from the day one.

© Shreya ♥

I am no princess, stop treating like one;
you've been extra nice to me,
is this the way you are or;
is this something I couldn't see?

You are good in all the ways;
it’s me who could't match you,
I wonder what’s there in me;
that makes you continue?

No matter how much complicated I sound;
you've asked me to stay the same,
I stumble to tell who am I;
have you accepted me the way I am?

You've guessed me almost right;
but I still have to figure you out,
for you know the most of me;
and I've no idea of what you’re all about.

You're a mystery to unfold;
wrapped in the layers of secret,
the more I try the complicated it becomes;
making me feel like losing a bet.

You don't complain about anything;
no matter how much I've given you the blame,
this is what bothers me to ask;
have you accepted me the way I am?

© Shreya ♥

Come and stand on my side;
count those missed opportunities,
and wonder why should I stand still;
being a victim of cursed calamities.

Walk with me those untrodden ways;
lost in the shadows of misfortune,
put your hands around my waist;
and dance on that echoing solitude tune.

All this is just a dream;
like those floating azure skies,
could it ever be real or;
its gonna be a part of compromise?

Why I gotta be the one;
whose happiness walks on broken glass?
and bleeds as the wound of expectations;
of which the pain seems not to pass.

Could you wait for me;
till all my wounds turn into scars?
or I gotta join my hands;
and make a wish on shooting stars?

All this is just a dream;
that keeps growing in size,
could it ever be real or;
its gonna be a part of compromise?

© Shreya ♥

In late seventies when bones refuse to support;
when eyes couldn't identify the object,
when most people plan their retirement;
I travel in flashback and regret.

All that time I've given to my children;
whom all my savings I’d spent on,
and loved them unconditionally;
that time has gone, long gone.

Now I've grown old;
with no more strength left,
they've left me alone to die;
with all my resources theft.

Grey hairs and missing teeth;
wrinkled face with eyes so deep,
fading memories that never sleep;
under which I hide and weep.

Looks like a nightmare came true;
and all I am left with is this stick,
on which I dare to walk my way;
with stumbled feet, so sick.

Now I've grown old;
with no more strength left,
they've left me alone to die;
with all my resources theft.

© Shreya ♥

If you’ll ask me how is life?
I’ll say everything is just fine;
though there is something to be fixed,
something, I just cannot define.

If you wanna know what it takes to be me?
just walk into my shoes down the lane of memory;
read those torn pages wrapped in blues,
all about my ecstasy to win and fears to lose.

All the pain hidden under the scars;
that resides still silent in my core,
this is a small piece about me;
though there is so much, more.

I am a missing puzzle piece;
of a picture to make complete,
or may be am an incomplete picture;
with which nobody can relate.

I cannot define myself;
and I guess nobody can,
‘cause I am still looking for;
what the hell is my plan?

I am trying searching my existence;
all about what when and how?
this is a brief about me;
I wanted y’all to know.

© Shreya ♥

Pick yourself up;
fix your bleeding knees,
wipe away your tears;
look up for opportunities.

Even if you fall again;
fix your stumbled feet,
elbow out your fear;
begin again and repeat.

Every time you fall;
ignore the people tease,
set your sight on the goal;
let your insecurities release.

Take your steps ahead;
the goal is not so far,
don’t waste time looking back;
just believe in who you are.

Cross every hurdle with hope;
there’s less left to go,
make your faith stronger;
more than you ever know.

Every time you fall;
give a **** to your pain,
its all about blood sweat and tears;
give yourself a chance to try again.

© Shreya ♥

You walked into my world bare feet;
don’t know when you knocked my door,
and out of the blues I've realized that;
it’s you who has occupied my core.

How did you reach there?
I wonder when you got the keys;
to unlock my heart, and mess it all,
making me go down by my knees.

You’re master in stealing hearts;
leaving the owner clueless,
of when you swept it away;
no sign behind, no guess.

Since you've got two now;
must be on cloud nine,
the one, which you own and;
another you've stolen mine.

You've done an unfair deal;
I could actually sue you,
but am not gonna do that;
I gotta wait, remarking it as due.

Expecting you to return one;
and badly longing for caress,
sometimes I wonder how;
I can be so clueless.

© Shreya ♥

You swore you’re not lying;
expected me to believe you,
and every time I tried;
you made it so hard to do.

Like a house of cards;
my world just fell apart,
you continue to be the same;
and I gotta go back to the start.

All your lies; I built my world on,
yeah I was so stupid, so wrong;
Still wonder; if the time has gone,
So am writing you this last song.

You claim that you love me;
and I know this ain’t true,
and every time you say;
I feel you are not the one I knew.

You sold all your promises;
we ain’t friends anymore,
said you’re sorry in the middle of night;
but I know you’re not so sure.

All your lies; I built my world on,
yeah I was so stupid, so wrong;
Still wonder; if the time has gone,
So am writing you this last song.

© Shreya ♥

You make my heart skip a beat;
when I look into your brown eyes,
am sure you have no idea but;
boy, you give me butterflies.

You **** me every time you smile;
make me long for you,
wonder what’s there in your heart;
don’t you feel the way I do?

I am lost, clueless what to do;
and all over my heart you rule,
I wish it could be a dream;
‘cause you don’t give a ****, so cruel.

The smell of your perfume lingers;
and in your arms I wanna die,
every time I hear your voice;
I can hear myself sigh.

You make me feel all numb;
leaving me feel nothing at all,
don’t know what’s so special ‘bout you;
every time that makes me fall.

I am lost, clueless what to do;
and all over my heart you rule,
I wish it could be a dream;
‘cause you make me dreaming like a fool.

© Shreya ♥

You’re a thought crept in insomnia;
a deep breath of despair,
I always fail not to think of you;
no matter how much I dare.

You’re a joy within;
an ache deep inside,
a scar peeking through the past;
no matter how much I try to hide.

All these thoughts make me feel so blue;
and I’ll always be losing to you.

You’re a dream lost in tears;
strong wish on a shooting star,
someone’s so called world;
out of reach, so far.

You’re a perfume that lingers;
a song that conquers my heart,
an unsolved mystery;
I gotta solve from the start.

All these thoughts make me feel so blue;
and I’ll always be losing to you.

© Shreya ♥

Darkness ain't stranger;
pretty familiar with that pain,
that resides somewhere around;
breaks me apart again and again.

Those commitments of happiness;
due since quite long time,
leaves me almost speechless;
like an artist involved in mime.

Got my wounds ripped off;
and there is no more scream,
for it’s hard to feel anything;
being a citizen of stoic realm.

Longing for the difference to feel;
between happiness and sorrow,
that keeps fading away;
in the hope of better tomorrow.

Scars replaced by new wounds;
so foreign to my memory,
overshadows my happiness;
am clueless, so eerie.

Have seen my only hope dying;
yet occupied by fake dream,
knew that’s never gonna turn real;
being a citizen of stoic realm.

© Shreya ♥