She always kept it in.
No matter how much was thrown in her way she took it in.
She carried a heavy burden on her tiny shoulders.
A burden that always anchored her down.
She cried in silence hoping no one would see her tears.
She didn’t want to trouble them with her wounds.  
She masked her wounds, waiting for them to heal.
The scars never fade.
She kept it in, she hid it well.
They failed to understand her pure heart.

The radiance of your smile tonight is an intoxicating drug
As you stood in the middle, I was engulfed by an epiphany
You are my heaven
You are the first ray of sunlight in my life
Everything about you captures my heart
You are my wish
All my life a part of me felt empty
It longed for a feeling, the feeling that leaped into my heart as I saw you tonight
We have no need for lifelong vows.
Hold me close
I want to feel everything tonight
I wish to dance my heart away tonight
I just want to live

Fairytales let you believe that one day your Prince Charming will come looking for you
The little girl believed
She waited for her prince
She was so caught up
She thought the boy with a mask was her prince
She let him in
She loved him
Her love was so pure that she didn’t think he couldn’t ever lie
But that’s all he did
The only dragon there was to slay were his lies
She couldn’t destroy the very thing she loved
Instead, she let him go
She was a bit broken but she was happy

They tell you to be open-minded yet they narrowed what it means to have an open mind.
“Think outside the box,” they say, yet the outside is guarded.
Everything is a big puppet show.
We live, then we die!
In between, we go through so much agony
only to attain this perfect life; a perfect life that yet to exist.
We all play pretend.
Some people find love, some find wealth, some suffer terribly.
I just want to break that chain of a perfect life
I didn’t ask to be a part of this but I was dragged into it.
They claim free will,
but it’s never free will, they hold you down.
We let them define your happiness
perfectly orchestrated by a wheel of illusion.

Lilac clouds veil the crescent silver bow tonight.
The moonlight seeps through.
Madness soars through the sky.
A storm is approaching with the rumbles of thunder.
Rain rushes down from the charcoal sky.
And flashes of lightning crystallize against the darkness.
We lose ourselves in the moment,
knowing another is yet to exist.

They all walked on the path that cascades down to a celestial land of light.
I followed them, they looked at me.
Something in their eyes made me feel uncomfortable,
I knew I didn’t fit in.
I walked away to an empty path.
A cold gust of wind sent shivers down my spine.
I looked for light but there was only darkness.
I continued.
Suddenly I could see a light following me but I couldn’t find a source.
I searched but I couldn’t see anything but darkness.
The light followed me.
I stopped looking for the source,
I admired the light.
It shone bright like a cosmic star.
It was never-ending.
I stumbled upon a small pond glistening like a sapphire under the darkness.
Lily pads decorated the pond like a Christmas tree.
I peaked,
I finally saw the light.
It was a reflection: my reflection.
I was the light.
I was like a dog chasing its own tail,
All along I failed to see the light within me.

She smiles at the world, I weep in the dark.

She is spontaneous, I am an introvert.

She has passion, I am lost.

She is the life of the party, I am unknown.

She is beautiful, I am chaotic.

She is cheerful, I am hollow.
She has it all together, I am in shambles.

She is me; I am her.
She hides me for she is my mask.

The voices in my head that were once just whispers are the only thing I now hear.
They are no longer whispers.
They have taken over.
My thoughts are now playing on a loudspeaker in a loop!
They block out everything that’s happening around me
and I am now just a vessel that’s breathing.

The path that was once so familiar
now seems so dystopian and cold
I didn’t give up
I walked on the path paved with your memories
I wanted them to be gone
Their shadows chased me
I screamed
No one heard me
I ran
I couldn’t hide
No one comforted the scared girl
She was alone and scared
An empty gust of breezy wind reminded me of your hollow promises
Your memories are like the shadows of misery
You were once my candle in a dark cave
You blew the fire
In the end, it was just me and an empty cave

Remember when you held my hand and pulled me a bit closer
You took my hand and placed it on your heart
Your unsteady heartbeat matched mine  
My insides kept churning
My body was in a state of euphoria
You gazed into my eyes
Your eyes were brighter than any cosmic stars
We both unconsciously erased the distance between us
And your lips came down on mine
And my body felt like it was gonna explode
I had the whole damm zoo dancing in my stomach
It felt like an eternity yet within a couple of seconds we gasped for air
And you looked at me and I didn’t know what just happened
You smiled and it had been the best thing I had ever seen

All you did was steal
You stole my heart, my time, and a piece of my sanity.  
And what did you give back?
A box of sadness that is guaranteed to last forever.
A piece of eternal hell and I kept it.
You gave me a bouquet full of emptiness
with a little dash of endless sadness.

All along this heart of mine is keeping secrets from me.
It has gone crazy and somehow restless.
It seeks for 'someone who is not around.
The one who is somewhere lost in the mist.
Now that he is not around my heart longs for him
I didn’t realize my heart craved a place just for him
His silhouette is sketched in silver hues somewhere in the back of my mind
I have nothing to offer but shadows of misery

Our tomorrow is already pre-planed by yesterday.
Our today is the process of us making it to tomorrow.
Everything has a set order even before we are born.
We are told to go to school, then college, and then find a job, and only then life is complete.
That’s society’s ultimate definition of happiness.
We are always anxious about the past and worried about the future and between all that, we forget to live in the present.  
And when we realize it’s too late

You lie about everything and anything.
But your eyes don’t.
They hold specks of Golden sunlight
They hint a story: depth of raw emotion
Your eyes are like silky melted chocolate  
They are brown like earth’s fettered beauty melted into golden rays
They are eyes of amber and onyx circling like an eclipse
They are like the color of the earth after it rains
Your eyes are deep pools of raw honey that Winnie the Pooh would beg for
They have a waterfall of innocence
they have me on my knees
- so helplessly yours

The rusty orange leave dance to the wind, it comes fluttering down
It travels with the breeze, without a destination
Under the twilight, the water mirrors a still sky
The stars glisten and my heart flutters
By dawn, the Sunshine spreads a carpet,
And everything walks on golden hues
Misty mornings, frosted lawns
The wind is blowing a winter song.
Winters coming, butterflies flutter from clover to wood.
The crisp, cool, clean air tickles my toes.
Under the harvest moon, pumpkin patches never looked so good.
Dark days of autumn rain are beautiful as days can be
Oh October how much I love you

To live


The radiance of your smile tonight is an intoxicating drug
As you stood in the middle, I was engulfed by an epiphany
You are my heaven
You are the first ray of sunlight in my life
Everything about you captures my heart
You are my wish
All my life a part of me felt empty
It longed for a feeling, the feeling that leaped into my heart as I saw you tonight
We have no need for lifelong vows.
Hold me close
I want to feel everything tonight
I wish to dance my heart away tonight
I just want to live!

The essence of a fresh spring shower still lingers around
The air blows ever so smoothly
the trees never look so green, they are so full of life
Droplets of rain falling from the leaves to the ground
A few drops here and there tickles my cheeks
The foggy clouds have hidden the glistening stars
The moon is veiled by dark clouds
but another moment so beautiful yet to exist

She was always lost in her own thoughts
She said too little
But there was a lot in her mind
She kept it all to herself
She was a mystery riddled with secrets

I want to say that you are my once upon a lifetime knowing that there would be no happily ever after.
No matter what happens, there’s no happy ending for us.
I thought it would eventually end.
It never does.
I really hope it does.
I can’t live with so many feelings bottled up.
I poured out my heart to you and your silence tore me apart.
I want you to be my Prince Charming
but I can't make you something you aren't
I just can’t seem to accept it.

Bursting with excitement as a new seedling is set to bloom,
the garden hummed tunes of welcome  
The gentle breeze and dazzling sunlight was swapped with dark gloomy clouds and winds of misery
All so suddenly menacing dark clouds took it all way
They all forgot how to smile
Crispy winter ahead but it couldn’t compare to the cold heart that had to bear the pain of losing a bundle of joy that bid the world goodbye without ever feeling the warmth of the sun
The excitement had all disappeared and the seed for hope was long gone