A tunic
Candles
Cooking
Fresh air coated with cloads
Movement
Deep breaths
Wrapped around your ankles
Secrets
Courage
Strategy
Whisper to me
No fear
Books and Mirrors
Sureness in your Eyes
Bathe
Water
Knowledge is Power
Write it
No one will get it
Power
Make no mistake
No self-doubt
Side effects
That vase, challice
A name like Gold
A name like yours
Hair growing
Longer
Time's pregnant
Banana bread
In a car
Love
Together we have power
Never give it up

You were asleep
When I walked into your room
You're the one person
Who I would wake up
I put my hand on your shoulder and sit down
Your eyes open
You're still in your work shirt
I take your earrings off
I give you my hands and move close
"So warm," you say
"Only your hands are cold"
I would walk through your double doors
rarely are they both open
And everything is warm in this house
Only my hands are cold
And the sky's heart of fire
in this sea of burning coal
Our feet feel the bricks get warmer
Only my hands are cold
And when the rare day comes
You're chilled to the bone
I would run to help you
Only...my hands are cold

You watch white people become millionaires
By spinning a wheel and guessing words
Is that entertaining for you?
Because you don't forget who you are
No matter how many of these people you see
You don't forget who you are
But I do
I forget who I am
In fact, I forget so well
that it's as if I never even knew in the first place
It's like being strapped
into a self-driving car
and you have no idea where it's taking you
Like my life is a wheel of fortune
and misfortune
Spinning around the blue

I get into the car
I don't say a word
Silence
Until the end of the street
"We need gas"
He says
And for the first time
I tell him about my day
If he's not gonna ask
If he isn't prying anymore
Let me tell you something
Let me tell you what I like
Cause I'm a person
And I can own this moment
Like you did
Too many times
You can't pry me open
If I'm open

Why are you everywhere?
Everywhere like the sky
I watch the spark light
I watch the flame die
Why are you everywhere?
Like a spec of dust in my eyes
I tell myself I'll drown you out
With drops of my new life
But you're everywhere
What happened to the
Depression, introversion, fatigue
The Tired
That doesn't disappear
Neither do you
Everywhere
Like the land and sky
I never hit hard
I only ask Why
Are you ******* everywhere?
Relentless existence
A ***** of needle
Every. Time.
Why are you everywhere?
Behind the lids of my eyes

Glass light
Time splits at moments like this
Oh
I remember
My heart wants what it wants
The lights were turned off
But we could see fine
Natural light
Through the glass onto your face
Blink
I tell myself I'm not ready
To teach you salsa steps
To push your hair back
To memorize your neck
I tell myself I'm not ready
To learn where you got that dress
I tell myself I'm not ready
But I am

She is all I need
And she comes home
Looking around with eyes like hooks
Chronically, desperately searching
for something to talk about
something to do
something to say
What are you running from?
She is all I need
And I tell her
about the snake road, winding in my brain
And  she doesn't get it
Useless
Like when you turn a corner
Hit a wall
Again
Help
Help
She can't help
She's a mirror
reflecting what I say
I know what I said, mama
I know what I said
I'm a tomb
And I need to be excavated
Dig deeper
But I'm left digging into her
Wall