The stars are clearer than ever tonight
With thoughts of you, I remember
What was once a dying light
Is now a growing flicker

From a distance, a stare to a stare
Gestures conversing in silence
In love and war, they say, all is fair
But why do you make all the difference?

Are you staring at the same sky as I am?
Can you see beyond, too?
Do you love how the stars light up the dark?
Or can you feel the moon watching over you?

How can God ever place such a beautiful thing
In a huge fallen world filled with broken people?
You are an angel with captivating wings
Blinding my eyes with your light, enveloping everyone who sees you.

Will you laugh at my foolishness
Once you know I made this for you?
Is there even a single percent of statistical probability
That you would see me the way I see you?

You are a million light years away
In the morning, will you be gone?
You are both the star-filled night sky
And the promising break of dawn.

When the one thing you want
Is the only thing out of reach

When was the last time you talked to God?
Was it a time you thanked Him?
For the things you have received without asking.
For the air you breathe every morning.
Was it a time you repented?
For the sins you have unconsciously done.
And for the sins you have been consciously repeating.
Was it a time you were angry?
For the things that backfired because of your own doing.
For the tribulations flooding in.
Was it a time you were begging to Him?
For the person you admire to notice you.
For your heart to heal after a devastating heartbreak.

The last time I talked to God
Was when I told Him
How my day went,
How I love sleeping to the sound of the rain,
How I love reading and writing poems that rhyme,
And made an exception for this one.

I fought hard for far too long
Taking it all, the pain
I thought I was just being strong
When I kept standing in the rain.

Looking around but not knowing
Who I'm looking for in this blurry haze
Maybe, just maybe, I'll be okay
I'll find my way out of your maze.

I do not want them to see me cry
But what can I do?
My tears just won't tell me why
It flows out of nowhere, flows out of the blue.

I do want them to know I'm strong
But the pain keeps haunting me inside
I'm just looking for a place where I belong
Some place where I can hide.

I live within the thought of a thought
So deep you don't want to know
They say I ought to give life a shot
That's what I have been doing so.

So please don't ever wonder why
I'm always on my own
I have lived far enough to try
I don't even have a place I can call home.

It has been a lonely day
Avoiding people
because of what they say
their words are knives
that cuts through me
cuts through my soul
cuts through my dignity.

what am I supposed to do?
If what I am is what is true
I dare not hide beneath an identity
My identity was long before
When Christ died for me.

I'm a fool indeed to plan
Building a castle on a sand
When waves will come and take away
My precious castle, please do stay.
I thought of a thought
of rebuilding again
A castle made of bricks
or marbles, or clay
But what I see now is what I want
My castle on a sand
my night and day.
It is weak
I won't argue
It may falter
This much is true
But look beneath the surface
I am sure you'll understand
My castle is more than just a castle
On a sand.

Not all the guys are like that, they say
How should I know?
I have trusted twice as much and I,
I have been hurt by doing so.

You will never fully understand
Until on my feet, you'll stand
The pain and agony I felt that day
When he just walked away.

I have lived in the shadows for far too long
and the brightness, I can't contain
I thought I was just being strong
When I kept on standing in the rain.

Roses, and letters, and chocolates on hand
Yet lies and bitterness all so grand
Fed up with fairytales, all I say
Is you'll never know how I felt that day.

I have never been scarred like this before
But never will I get hurt anymore
Not now, when t'is all just too late
Remember when you said,"I will wait"?

I doubt you'll still remember
The promises you confidently whispered
The memories embedded in my heart still
I just hope you'll understand how I feel.

With questions asked, I say no
When love stirs up, I say go
Just leave me here, on my own
I'm used to being left all alone.

I am a fool, I know you'll say
To see them all that way
But one would never understand
How I felt that day.

It was when
I thought that I
Could bear to do it all
Seems like I
Was all so tired
To risk and try and fall
Life is not
What I have thought
It seems unfair to me
I dared to dream
I tried to love
Oh, pity me.
Yet we know
As the sun
Sets and rises again
That life is not
Just all about
Being sad and heartbroken.
Rise up, my friend!
For another day
Is way ahead of you
Do not just weep
Lift your head
Laugh and live
And perhaps,  fall in love again.

When my smile fades away
and when the sky runs out of stars,
When the moon decides to give way
to the sun, remember me from afar.

When the clock stops ticking
and the ravens are at halt,
When my heart stops beating,
Remember to not let the ravens devour my heart.

Remember me for who I was
and for what we once had,
Remember me not only when we were happy
but when we were also sad.

The memories, bitter and sweet,
are deep within me still
But just in case, you choose to forget
I will be the one to remember for you were given the will.