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Feb 2019 · 228
Stands for a woman
Mehtap Feb 2019
Choke my rhythm softly with roses

Silence down my thoughts of rebel

Tell me you're trapping me for me

Lie to me with an ugly numbing spell

Trap me in cages of gold and amber

Abandon me Till I have nothing to tell

Said I was too much under your noses

Convinced me I was fragile, an eggshell

Thought words wouldn't leave bruises

All I carry in mind my eyes boldly impel
Feb 2019 · 493
Let me, let yourself
Mehtap Feb 2019
Let me take your hand
Let me
Dance with you slowly
Lay my cheek
on your cheeck
Let my curls tangle with your silky hair playfully
Drop formality give you a heart tweak

Let me touch you the way they didn't touch you
Gently, slowly, with every drop of lust I have for you, and I'll tear up but don't peak
Let me merge my warmth with your sadness
Let me ease your tension let my eyes speak

Let me
Let me tell you silly stories
you don't have to breathe a word
hear my emotions leak
Let me take you away from these noisy crowds
Let me trace the map of your face with my index
Tease your lips, kiss your moles.
This night is a disastrous streak


Let yourself
Dance with me slowly
Lay your cheek on my cheek
untangle my curls, brushing them away from my face so you could see
let yourself fall deep

Let yourself Drown in my touch and soft kisses
as I laugh at your timid reflexes pick up the speed
Let yourself feel my warmth slip into you
Let your soul listen to my eyes when they speak
Let yourself laugh as I rant nervously
Let yourself slow me down,
brushing my shoulders that are oblique

Let yourself
Kiss my fingertips as they land on your lips
Let your hands surrender and, hold me back
closer than you've ever dreamt
Let go of the act that no one needs,
it’s bleak
Jan 2019 · 1.9k
The comeback
Mehtap Jan 2019
Tried to give you a pleasing answer but could not

Silence filled empty spaces, I saw your eyes drop

You know tears clear you are my only blind spot

I'll keep my feelings in, a beautiful secret locked

The ends of my lips rise, my mean act cracked

I let my hand rest on your cheek, can't drawback

Breathtaking, heart breaking, barely holding back

entertwine your fingers in mine, replay flashbacks

Memories of child promises you're cute like that

I let my lips hug yours firmly that's my comeback
Jan 2019 · 207
Child Of The Sun
Mehtap Jan 2019
Beautiful child of the sun how can something shining with beauty and sadness

listening to people's tragedies quietly, creeping anxiety as they rant casually it's madness

I got jealous from those trickling tears I forbid they fall for others but I'm sapless

If I gave up everything will the moon shine on my empty soul and color my empty canvas?
Jan 2019 · 397
Imagine
Mehtap Jan 2019
I sit across from you and let my imagination play it's game darling I need a fix

Behind your ear, down your neck and a couple cigarettes away from your lips

The small of your back is dying to be pulled closer to me a nervous giggle slips

Stroking your rists softer than a breeze sliding to the palm of your hand tight grips

I'll lose my mind in your smell my breath singing your name. a moon in full eclipse
Jan 2019 · 334
Mess
Mehtap Jan 2019
I have an ocean of words for you
An empty ocean
What a mess
You dry my letters up, wipe my smile off
Melt my heart down like clay

Dragged me into this lousy game
Now I'm stuck
What a mess
You keep asking for yet another round
We both know you'll win me away

I'm leaving, don't hold me back
Game is over
What a mess
You say you won't, and you don't, yet I stay
This time you smile, you loose today
Jan 2019 · 221
A Prayer
Mehtap Jan 2019
Laying down thinking of how not to think
Of you
Your faint irritating smirk in a cold curve
What to do
Your chewable lips only if I could have
A few
Bites? Kisses? Is it too much to ask tell me then
How to
Step on my heart freeze my feelings become
Anew
These dark brown eyes so soft yet deep coffee
Cold brew
Dark eyes are dark with sadness, secrets yet i
See through
Your eyes are meant to sleep soundly baby ill be
The one to
Drink up your darkness, carve your scars on me
Stay true
Let's lose sanity together get drunk in each other
Let's undo
These borders that are barely fighting our heavy breathing
Then redo
This prayer, again and again in an endless dream
Turning to
Reality, it's our first dance the only way I've learned
To carry through
Nov 2018 · 1.4k
A Forbidden song
Mehtap Nov 2018
Eyes
that know no religion , morals, nor mercy
Looked my way

Opened the cage of the little flapping bird in my chest and let it fly away

Bird keep it quite calm down
Hopefully I pray


Or love will rip you apart, burn you to ashes,eat your heart.
I make it stay

Oh bird, Her eyes are
spears, they're
Cold steel metal, don't bend, slow down, or waver .

Oh poor bird still singing hold yourself
apeice

Her eyes are
briers,
disguised as roses, claiming peace.

Peace left us for years now
this land is conceived with fear but it's knights are feirce

At times moans of torture

at times a sweet song of lust and Tease ,your love

All is fine when it doesn't reach your
Ears . I

was never one to surrender or lay back with ease. A rebel

stubborn rebel this little bird a beauty that leers.

My dear,
A bird will always sing.
A poem
That you shall never hear.
Oct 2018 · 601
Silver blue
Mehtap Oct 2018
You remind me of my dark bitter coffee
Of the cigarette I smoke after a mental break down.
Inhale..... I love you.
Your love is like the burn I feel down my throught, between my ribs, in my lungs. Exhale.......... I watch clouds of grey disappear into nothingness and I close my eyes remembering your lips against mine, your gentle yet violent kisses ,your teasing attitude ,your wicked smile. Inhale......... I breath in deep wanting to feel the burn hard as if I was breathing you, And it hurts.
It hurts to love someone, it hurts to love you.
I try to remember when did I start feeling this way. When you whispers "stop biting your lips" as you squeezed my hand ? When I first talked to you? When i saw you walking down the hallway stroking your hair? Before that?.........
Exhale................. I part with the smoke slowly feeling the last burn out of my mouth.
Oct 2018 · 1.2k
Laying with the sea
Mehtap Oct 2018
That night she wanted to prove her beauty.
So she killed all light.
Letting only a dim-dip from the moon to reflect how she danced seductively in calm, bold waves, wearing her night black gown now
heading my way .
That night I felt her beauty with all names men had for senses and some god only knew existed.
The sea was always a possesive lover who's satisfied only when humidity consumed every inch of me,
Leaving my breath heavy, skin sticky with her water.
But that night, as if assured I'll be hers forever she pulled back
sending unapologetic rough wind that matched the loud waves still dancing beneath me.
I closed my eyes and layed down on her shore in complete surrender;
letting her wipe every memory of love before her.
"Wash me"I mouth loud enough only for her to hear.
Why was I touched before.
My brain became heavy with her smell that I kept ******* gulps of, and felt tears collect themselves in my eyes.
I discovered the happiness they kept bragging about in complete decoy.
If only they know what happiness felt like.
Ocasionally I'd peak at her to see endless folds of black and my heart runs fast with fear of its majesty.
She accepted what I am, enjoyed swallowing my dark thoughts into her even darker descending bottoms.
Her distance made it clear I was not to touch, only taste her.
For once I couldn't mind,
I threw the weight of my sorrow and passed into a state I still don't have synonyms for.
Her love made me complete,
I was ready to leave this life then and there with no regrets or a second look.
For everything would be tasteless after her
Oct 2018 · 1.6k
Rain drops
Mehtap Oct 2018
Drip drip drop
The sky cries.
Shades of greys and blues
Neutral flat a little bit sad
But true.

Like all the stories you hide
beneath faint soft yellow
But blue can only be covered with red


Drip drop drip drop drip drops
It gets faster and violent my child heart beats.

Rhyming with your giggles and pronunciation of what used to be my name
Now a soothing sound like the rain praying for longing souls

My god I pray **** that love in me

Drip drip drop
The melody slows down.
The pallete reveals a hint of blue
Will you show me some color too?

Perhaps it's time to leave.
I could never bear grey for long
It's becoming dull and gloomy this song

Drip drop
I wave goodbye until my lover returns
Prayers are answered, souls are rested.
Tears are sweet

— The End —