while the others boys lied
about their emotions
he held me and together we cried.

sometimes we both wonder
what life would be like if we died.
both young, both tired.

Afraid of my luck,
I was ready to give up

he said baby don't worry
I told him I needed him bad, please hurry!!!

He convinced me to keep trying,
saying he would protect me forever

he was telling the truth
he was my LION.

I've become dangerous.
Poison pumps through my veins.
My troubled heart is to blame.

My arch nemesis is cupid
who seems Hell bent
him and every ex of a *****.

I Bet he gets paid
every time my soul gets broken
or some guy gets laid.

some devils have love made
while sweet Angels like myself
end up getting played.

I gave you my body like a ***
I gave you answers you desired to know
you only gave insecurities,
making me feel guilty and low.

I begged for our love
admitting my issues with co-dependence
but you laughed at me,
mocked my innocence.

For that I hate you.
I regret you, you *****.
yet you're still that addiction
I have yet to kick.

But know this....

You,
me,
and this feeling,
will be the last scratch
I will allow to itch.

women and girls,
boys nor men
could bring me such glory in such filthy sin.

breathe in
tears out
only freaks know what I'm talking about.

I had no choice
due to my lovers abandonment,
so I found a guilty pleasure that was heaven sent.

we always argue about the same things
you think I'm confused
I think you're deranged.

we always talk about the same stuff
how you're dominant
and want me to be softer, although I was born tough.

why can't we just get along?
I write poetry
and you like songs.

I think I have my answer*

This feeling has spread from
my head to my bed
like cancer.

I keep lying to myself
and breaking more hearts
creating makeshift sparks.

When all alone
you were the only light I ever needed
in the dark.

at darkness
we play games
like husband and wife

I give you heaven
you bring me hell
but I won't dare tell

a few seconds of bliss
I no longer want to be touched
I am now sickened by your kiss

you were no gentleman
but when you see me out
please call me MS.