Our words started to stutter,
and our lips began to quiver;
tears formed in our eyes,
enough to fill a river.

We couldn't say the right words,
but in that moment
no words could give us closure.
The silence spoke for us,
we both knew it was over.

Maybe It's an off day,
or maybe It's something more?
Maybe I'll go another year
without writing a word more.

I thought I was getting better,
maybe It's just the weather?
Maybe I'll never get it right,
but maybe I'll never pull it together.

Maybe we're on a break,
or maybe we're done forever.
So many questions
and my only response is "whatever".

I just want to be happy.
I just want to think clear.
I'm tired of living by a life or death choice.
I'm tired of living in fear.

please
please.
hug me
I am begging you
And don't ever let me go
until we stop breathing
and the world cleaves in half
just hold me
tight
and tighter
until everything
feels alright
I don't know why
It hurts
but it does
and I am torn apart
I don't like it
Any more than you
But I cannot control
the black energy
pouring out of me like oil
like blood
and lies
choking my lungs
on their own air
catch me
catch me.
catch me!
because I am falling
and I can't find my way
its a mess
inside my head
and these feelings
run little strings
all over my mind
and thread me into shreds
of paper
and tears
I worry for you
only
because your worry for me
and fear
and afraid
drives me
I lay down
on my floor
in my head
I shut the door
to keep you all out
so I can be alone
with my selves
so you wont get hurt
but still you hear
my screams
in symphony
with the beating
of your precious heart
and my love
I let go
so I can hold on
even though
I've got it all wrong
survival is a lie
and I can't find the key
to find a way
to be set free
but I tell you
I'm fine
I shut the door
and birth the red lines

A heart is an *****
A heart can feel
Even without a brain

My heart has a brain
It can feel sadness
It can feel sick

However
Recently
My heart has been in hiding
Hibernating

As it lay in wait
In a chamber hidden in the dungeon known as my body

But my heart has been set free
It wishes to cry as it can finally see the sun again

Yes
My heart knows pain
But now it knows confusion

Confused
Scared
Adventurous

My heart is free
My heart with a brain
Is free

☆

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the sun's wind blowing away
the morning star for eternity


[10W]
SoulSurvivor
(C) 2/12/2016