Alone

I question everything I am
My Life
My Goals
My Purpose
I look up at night and lie awake afraid to sleep,
Constantly wondering about the end
Afraid I will die with no one to hold
Afraid that no one will ever really know me
Afraid that the last moments I spend alive,
Will be spent feeling the way I always feel

Alone

once upon a time
there was a girl named Sue
I fell in love
with her glitter tattoo

it wasn't real
I knew it from the start
I didn't care
I just wanted her heart

so I went to the store
to find me a tat
all I could find
was a friggin' bat

so I spit in my hand
slapped it onto my chest
it looked pretty awesome
I never would've guessed

I got to her house
and knocked on the door
she jumped off the bed
her feet hit the floor

She got a look
at my new tattoo
then she whispered
"I love you"

Let me break your heart.
Rip your world into pieces
And destroy who you thought you were
Then I'll ask if we can be friends. 
Funny isnt it?

That's your logic.

I want to ask
What reminds you of me?
But if you were to ask me back
I couldn't pick one thing
Because my mind likes to bring
Everything back to you
But then maybe my answer is
That I remind myself
Of you

it rained today
the thunder reminded me of when i lay next to you and listened to the sound of your heartbeat in the ironic dead-silence
the flash of lightning reminded me of the spark that once glistened in your soft, brown orbs
the damp but comforting smell reminded me of your taste
the rain trailing down my window mimicked the tears that once stained my cheeks

it rained today
the rain reminds me so much of you
probably since when you left me I was as if debris ruins after a storm