Why do I feel the only way to start all over again is to be reborn?
Why do I feel the only answer is to leave everything behind?
Why do I feel everything is not okay and it will never be?
Why do I feel everything is falling apart and there is nothing I can do to stop it?
Why do I feel like exhaling one last breath and then leave with a smile?

There is nothing else in my mind but to just leave and let go completely.

You were there
for me
to teach me
to guide me
to help me
to listen to me

Are you here now
for me
to hug me
to kiss me
to hold me
to love me

Because I was there then and I am here now

i can leave you alone.
i won't text you
or call you.
i'll sit as far away as i can from you.
i will no longer tell others
of how you're mine.
but the distance cannot stop my brain
from recalling memories.
all the distance on the couch.,
cannot stop my eyes from wandering to your messy hair or piercing green eyes.
it won't guard me from remembering your voice
or how in love with you i am.
a love as powerful as mine
cannot be damaged by such a measly tool
as the distance you want.

i give so much
of my love to the world
that there isn't quite
enough left
for myself.