That it was only me & you,
alone in a room.
Smoking a joint of your best ****
& I hesitated
because I couldn't match.

& you said something smooth
to make me giggle,
then you kissed me.
it was electric.
But, I stopped you,
& said "I hope you know
I'm not doing this because I owe you,
but  because I like you."

& you just smile & laughed an,
"Of course!"
Giggling,
you kiss me.
You kiss me again & again
& again.

Rest your hands on my waist
        and I'll rest mine on your shoulders

Glide with me around the venue
          and tango with me across the dance floor

Buy nasty food with me
         and spill Shirley Temple on my pure white dress with me

Poss for professional photos with me
        and rest your chest against my back as I blush

Hold me close
         as I hold my breath
              hoping this moment-
                             this night-
                                     never ends.

i took a risk

                                      which i really regret

who was i to think

                                     that i actually could be strong


and now as the walls of reality crash down upon me

                                        
                                      i realize that i am not strong

nor valiant

                                        i am weak

and fragile

                                     i am worth no more dead

than alive