"tih" poems
My mind is going weird again and hurting my head
I don't know what to make of it
I think
I want a male me
Or just me. I want another me. Doesn't necessarily have to be male. Can be female. Why not both. But I want another physical and spiritual embodiment of who I am as a person
A part of me just wants to hug and hold someone. And my head is automatically choosing said person, but the feeling of the mere hug and contact is overshadowing the identity of the person by a few degrees
I miss calloused hands roaming my body. And I miss body heat. I miss legs I can entangle mine with. I miss the crooks of necks. I miss snores emanating from a chest and hearing the rumble in the air from it. I miss tired faces resting and appearing destressed. I miss light groans as a body shifts positions in their sleep.
I think I can pinpoint what it is that I miss. Because although all sound like physical and verbal responses, it is not the actions, although they always go hand in hand.
I think I miss intimacy. But what is necessarily intimacy?
There's a few definitions as soon as one googles it
A close familiarity or closeness. A private, cozy atmosphere. A closeness of observation or knowledge of a subject.
My chest aches and pounds as I try to put my finger on what it is I'm searching for. The more it aches, the closer I am to finding my answer
Intimacy.
In-tih-mah-see.
In-to-me-see.
See-in-to-me.
Intimacy is to see in to me.
It is to let and allow someone to see you for who you are, to know what makes you a being.
But not necessarily in your head.
Intimacy is the knowledge of how another person's mind control's their body. How the body reacts to acts that can cause the mind to blank or move forward just off-beat of the body.
It's dragging your fingertips over their body and feeling the goosebumps rise as a laugh comes from the mouth over the words "popcorn butter is actually coconut oil with artificial flavoring" and feeling your eyes connect the dots between those goosebumps to their face and your brain noticing the connection between noises and nerve endings.
Intimacy is a weird state to be in. Because too much can cause the mind to blank and overload itself with serotonin and dopamine. All the while there is never enough time in the world to drag on that forever feeling
It's the act of getting lost in a person and discovering bits and pieces of how you affect said person.
In body, in mind, in response
I think I'm done because I don't know how else to frame my words. My head hurts and my chest pounds with equal force. I believe it's time for me to bid adieu and deal with this in the dreamscape
May 1, 2017
May 1, 2017 at 11:24 PM UTC
U noći čujem
vjetar što njiše grane,
mrsi kosu,
povija sjenke da plešu
svoju tihu igru.
Uzvici moji
utihnuli su na tren,
kao da sam daleka
i od sebe
i od svijeta.
U srcu tame
rađa se spokoj,
nježan i tih,
kao da me nebo
u svom beskraju
uzima pod okrilje.
Sep 12, 2025
Sep 12, 2025 at 10:33 AM UTC
POLJUBCI S TVOJIH USANA
U ovoj toploj noći
san mi ne dolazi na oči.
Oblaci su nebo prekrili
mjesec su sakrili.
Zvijezde ne sjaje
vrijeme ljeta još traje.
Sa prozora Čiovo se vidi
na počinak su išli ljudi.
Na kantunalu stoji naša slika
moja ljubav prema tebi je velika.
Tih ću biti
ne bih te htio probuditi
želim te sretnu ujutro vidjeti.
Na moru jedrenjak
sa bijelim jedrima
osvjetljava more
sa svojim svijetlima.
Kasni su noćni sati
vrijeme je da se pođe spavati.
Zaželim želju prije sna
da me ujutro bude
poljubci sa tvojih usana.
Stjepan Orlić
Sep 9, 2025
Sep 9, 2025 at 6:07 AM UTC