Books movies
Scifi fantasy
Reading writing
Letters words
Social skills
Or lack thereof
All culminate to be
The nerd inside of me

Last night I reached my hand out to the monster under my bed whose eyes usually glow scarlet and whose teeth typically gnash and snap but this time had the same deep brown eyes and average teeth that I do

Last night I pulled my skeleton out of the closet and we danced to the blue jazz that floated through my window from the sax player below and then we played never-have-I-ever and watched SciFi TV on Netflix

Last night I asked the mermaid down the bathtub drain if she'd like to come up for a swim and we laughed and splashed and sat on my roof in the star light talking about love and sushi recipes and where to get a really good haircut

Last night I called out to the werewolf who roams these parts as he called out to the silver globe of a moon and I gave him some salad because he's a vegetarian and he showed me pictures of his pet bunnies Morningglory and Killer

Last night I covered the mirrors and opened the shades for my vampiric friend Velma, a quiet girl who volunteers at the animal shelter and soup kitchen

Last night I said good night to my nocturnal friends and went back inside to turn off the lights and make sure my dog was inside who I call Albertius Rex but was previously known just as Cerberus

I don't know if it's the whiskey or the cigarettes or the one night stands or the phony lovers phoning you for self affirmation that they too - can **** like a professional star on a cheap website.

I don't know if everything I've ever been told was only a regurgitation of everything someone else has ever been told. If we all function solely through heresy and political agendas.

Blood stains on freshly lit cigarettes, they say those'll **** you - but I'm already dead inside.

Starve myself because the scale hates me
                       because the models in the magazines are what my lover fancies
                        because every photograph I've seen within the past several years were of girls resembling holocaust victims - who most likely suffered in the same way that most of those victims have. But only in the sense that, they themselves were the German Nazis malnourishing their Jewish bodies of food.


How awful it must feel, to embody both the **** and the Jewish girl. But I've never actually read Anne Frank's memoir - so what the **** do I know.

If I were skinnier, if I were prettier, if I were smarter, if I read more non fiction and russian literature - if I listened to radio talk shows about politics and found scifi equally as enjoyable as I find raunchy cult classics that make up the subculture stereotype.

       Would I then, capture your attention?


I've already lost my own, truthfully. But everything is only temporary anyways.

exposition of my position
connecting epic art of
scifi legend extraordinare
frank franzetta.

from my back to distant Barsoom
A princess of Mars is my captive muse
to a story of a pale blue dot.

where an archer's bow points
her lady-ship has no censorship
unbiased in crowded eyes.

blinking aeons of information
torching elemental tables
undisguised for public record.  

unforgettable this ticking thought of self
Converging lines and tectonic season
Moving over earth with pilgrim miles.

Gothic Black
What will tomorrow be like?
We have to get thru today first
Then we can see what it’ll be like
The same old crap or different?
A perfect utopia of happiness
Or a black ash filled world
We will see as the days die
Night becoming the new normal
Some think tomorrow is now
And only darkness will reign
Like some scifi horror story
With us as the characters
All soon to perish in the night
I look forward to that world
More gothic than black

Arrival
2. Galaxy Quest
3. 2001 A Space Odyssey
4. I, Robot
5. I Am Legend
6. Blade Runner 2049
7. Star Wars ( All of it )
8. Star Trek
9. Midnight Special
10. Minority Report

If you observe fireworks each one has its own style

Same way

Every friend confronted and been in my life is special

Moments I spent with you are precious

I love books and your memories are been stored in my library

My experiences with all of you are priceless and like an adventurous SCIFI fantasy

Thank you all for being part of my life and making my life colorful

I may be far but not too far from your memories

Happy friendship day buddies

When I see a
Clear dusk sky
In the evening
I like to imagine
That
We have more neighbors
In our solar system
And that we have more moon
Like that of a scifi or fantasy novel
Back to reality.

Let's combine our powers
Then we won't defeat us
Wade in wonders, memories and time machines
Rewind the hours
I'll teach numbers you say words
We'll reach a grade of genius
We could be an A

Let's go and perform with the dinosaurs
The crowd will go wild
Then I kind of thought we could birth a sausage
Doggedly solving crimes of sorts
Possibly go back even further to the beginning
I've never been in the prime before BC
We could be in A

Don't like the SciFi stuff?
Then Great Scott let's go back to the forest
My sources tell me it's new
If you don't hate a view we can go wide-eyed
Be one with the horses sorry ponies
If only we could talk to them
We could be a neigh

The Pup would be tired. Pooped
Perhaps we'd all require recuperation
To remain stationary
Or we could carry on
Should our wonky legs become carrion
Donkeys will help us or we collapse in the trees with no phone
At least we'd be alone
We could be NA

But how can we get up when we can't stand ourselves?
If your knee is weak use mine. Can I use your hip?
My entire right side is over and apart
I'm hoping you could be my other half and we'll rise together
Until our eyes our better. Drier.
We'll hold our healed hands and lean shoulder to shoulder
We could be an A.

I find my humanity
in stories,
in Japanese Anime
and cool manga,
where all those heroes
spring from things
that seem unbearable.

I find my humanity
in far flung fantasies,
of fictional realities
where characters strive to be
better than they were previously,
where they are constantly
working and growing like me.

I find my humanity
in flowing verses of poetry
that sweep stale cobwebs
from my sad cluttered head
and help me see things differently,
which is what my scifi perspectives
also offer me.

Even though, sorrow stains my
poetic flows,
bringing in
cynicism,
and anger towards my fellow men.
Even when people tend
toward hateful trends
of violence, sexism, racism,

somewhere in the art I love
lay similar hearts of
humane ambition,
of nuclear fission,
of dreamers on a mission,
and there my humanity
is frequently restored to me.

Europa Report it seeks
Far off hidden places

Bioluminescence
Alien aquatic races

Scifi as its shelved
As outer space in horror

Journey towards beginnings
Science a Neils Bohr- er

Discoveries are made
But astronauts all die

The last one maybe eaten
No one quite knows why

But film sent back to Earth
Shows we are Not alone

A species swims beyond
Our life in Twilight Zone

Terror and Discovery
Greet the Great Unknown

Someone has to go there
Some of us will die

But the sacrifice reveals
Life in Starry Sky

Courage is the gift
And others too will try

Isolation is not true
Alone is all a lie

The discovery of extraterrestrial life
Would be a serious game changer

Talk about a cosmic form
Of welcoming the Stranger

I watch the telescopes
I watch the scifi dangers

I wonder if the Starchild
Is up there born in a manger?

today: sun sweet sun
but tomorrow the call for rain

my umbrella is true blue
like my profession of pain

but i too have known joy
in Stockholm, not yet Spain

cycling och scifi bookstore
Baltic beauty in my brain!

All my relentless searching: vain, vain, vain
Still the primal reality: Life itself is pain.

But I've read a lot of books
And I've seen lots of scifi movies

Libraries and bookstores
Cinemas behoove me

Life itself is a Search
Only ends in death

One kiss for her in moonlight
3 kisses for my boys with breath

Find what I could not
Go forth: Discovereth!

The wrong kind of silence
Is deepest pain

The sweet southern sunlight
And grey day rain

Make me miss
Gamla Stan again

Scifi bookstore
Malmo train

Gamla Stan scifi
Stockholm sunlit sky
   Hey Hey my my

It's not the Westerns
That spin my myths
It's the scifi starship tales

They speak to me in magic
As Melville speaks of whales

Arrival and Galaxy Quest
I, Robot and Star Wars

Make me think there might be more
In this universe of yours

Solaris on the ceiling
Star Treks through the floors

Maybe multiplying universes
Maybe open doors?

If I could
I would get on trains
Ride ride ride ride ride

I got the inner torment
Some kind of driving ride
Inside

Melville, Markson, Emily
Scifi bookstore Gamla Stan
Can't quite find her
Road goes ever on

I've known Mother Asia
Cruel but she can cook
Actually an artist
Jane Austen books

2 outs in the 7th
He's on the Chicago Cubs
I'm at Granny Murray's
And a couple other Irish pubs


               Persistence.

My car breaks down again
USAA on the line

I too lived in Taiwan
Like translator Red Pine

Rockets fly to space
Brings scifi thoughts to mind

If aliens we embrace
I hope they treat us kind

What do you think, dear reader
Out there we will find?

7:37
Palindromic time

Live not on evil
Find some words that rhyme

Writing again today
Scifi postcards

Moonlanding stamps
My attempt to be a bard

        Criticism is easy
           Life is guard

My brothers and my sons
Carolina blue

It's now after midnight
I'm up and think of you

This winter is quite frightening
Stay in and watch tv

Or movies, maybe scifi
Cosmic distantly

I hold you in my heart
The light side of the Force

Day by difficult day
Always and of course

We come up short
And we go down hard

It's too true, Bruce
In my backyard

Can't quite find
Search and search

Concert hall
Quiet church

Scifi movie
Moby ****

Young sons sung
Point guard quick

Drifting days
Starry nights

Shakespeare plays
Marital fights

Childhood memory
Mr. Spock Kites!

Today I was good to myself
I woke up and went right back to sleep
Even though I'd already slept 8 hours.
Then I did it again
And I got 11 hours of sleep

Today I was good to myself
I got up and made a yummy breakfast
I didn't worry about making my bed
Not right away
I just ate bacon and drank a smoothie

Today I was good to myself
I made 3 cups of my favorite hot tea
And I put fresh local honey in it
And a bit of lemon juice
And I let myself feel it
Travel down my chest
And into my belly
Hot and soothing

Today I was good to myself
I spent an hour and a half in my bible
Highlighting
And Journaling
And admiring the beautiful words

Today I took care of myself
I kept all the lights off except one
I paid my overdue bills
And I talked to my plants
And read a book
And I watched scifi
It's my favorite

Today I was good to myself
I didn't let myself worry
About money
Or work
Or church
Or anything else
I just let myself be at peace
I didn't even get dressed

Today I was good to myself
I took a hot bath
I put Epsom salt bubbles in it
And Eucalyptus bath salt
And I soaked away all the stress of the last couple months

Today I was good to myself
I wasn't productive
Not really
I let myself rest
Today I didn't do anything
But I did the important thing
And I was good to myself

The think they're Galileo
But I know Trappist1

Who will fly the starship
When the work is done?

Actually, I'm tired
Just stay inside and rest

Watch those scifi movies
The world is cursed and blessed

Tacos again today
Pizza in the night

Vegetarian Xie Xie
I think I may I might

With my Mr. Spock kite.

Shuttle 37
James Tiberius Kirk
JJ Abrams
In scifi the Sacred hides

Once I was a teacher
Now I do not work
Tel Aviv was blue
Quaint was Malahide

When I was a child
Mr. Spock kite
Live long and prosper
California: Oceanside

Just coincidence
Maybe apophenia
Maybe a little hope
Maybe Starfleet ride

        maybe inside

I sleep with the lights on now
I sense the endless dark
Please protect my oldest friend
Sacramento Mark

Venice and Istanbul
Will I ever go?
Portland's Japanese garden
Kyoto aglow in snow

Beauty is a blessing
Science marches dawn
Snow falling on cedars
Scifi Gamla Stan

Beauty doesn't last
Young women become old
Sent my letter to you
Truth had to be told

           Origami
        Florida Fold

To me, being Messianic is good
I still am mad to be saved
And mad to live in a neighborhood
For the bold, the broken, the brave

Twilight is almost here
I wander quite solitary
Toledo's taqueria
The Guadalupe green clad Mary

I like scifi movies
London 2039
Stephen King, Hey 19
Alex a friend of mine

With him I drink the Wine.

In the mid 90s
Wrote to Jesuit Walter Ong
Baltimore in 46
Am I late along?

First day of school
Mr. Harry Wong
Taipei Confucian temple
Drums, robes, gong

Confucius at GMU
I say a prayer for Taiwan
Beauty Baltic Sea
Scifi Gamla Stan

Gunmetal gray
An email? Susansan.
Jokic throws the lob
Hither and anon

       2 bucks. 1 fawn.

If you were around
I'd tell you I love you
I wish I had
I would do better

If you were still here
I'd just pick up the phone
I wish I had
I would hug you tightly

If you weren't gone
I'd ask to spend time with you
I wish I had
I found out too late

If you were still with us
I'd kiss your wrinkled cheek
I wish I had
I didn't do it enough

If you were here
I would watch scifi with you
I wish I had
I never knew you loved it

If you were still on earth
I'd see you more often
I wish I had
The last time I saw you, you were so much thinner

If we still had you
I'd hug you longer
I wish I had
It all happened so fast

If I could see you now
I'd tell you I'm sorry
I wish I had
I didn't tell you how much I love you

If I could do it over
I'd tell you you're the only grandpa I remember
I wish I had
Now I have to love you from afar

If you could see me
You'd see my regret
I wish you could
All I want to do is see you

If I could see you again
I'd tell you about my day
I wish I had
We only spoke in passing

If we were face to face
I'd tell you I want you at my wedding
I wish I had
It's too late now

If we could see you again
You'd tell us not to cry
I wish you would
We miss you so much

Little pieces of hope
In a world of vast despair
Small steps only
Highwater Everywhere

She's gentle, kind, caring
A diamond in the rough
Jesus wasn't humble
No, no. He was tough.

America is Ignorance
But I like Johnny Cash
Bodies in the furnace
Humans turned to ash

Stockholm was so pretty
Scifi Gamla Stan
Charming Uppsala Cathedral
A little garlic naan

                         Tak

The isolation is frightening at times
I reach out but do not reach
You should see the girls
Who live in Satellite Beach!

Shared privacy, One love
Hablo un pequito Espanyol
Vegetarian burritos
80s Rock n' Roll

I like those Taoist Immortals
I climbed Yangmingshan
Thin Red Line
Scifi Gamla Stan

The marriage is Disaster
But she gave me the gift of travel
The World's Greatest Detective
The Riddler too unravels

All the King's Men at JMU
She calls him Jackie Bird
I rebel; therefore we exist
One man against the Absurd

                    Word!

Self consciousness is painful
Know we have to die
Scifi movies tonight
Gratitude for Ry

My dad made it to Knoxville
Darkness falls for I
Living alone is lonely
Exoplanet Sky

She's gentle, kind, caring
But I am not her guy
We live a short time
Nobody really knows why

I like used bookstores
Might reread Life of Pi
Hope springs eternal
The Boxer: Lai la Lai!

I was given madness
What a gift for me!
1969
Knoxville, Tennessee

Still the fear of death
My children - xie xie ni
Scifi Gamla Stan
Beauty Baltic Sea

Nothing at all can lost
Dublin: meant to be
Quiet little hotel room
Number 333

Sadness. Solitude.
Confidentially
I still can't find her
Makes me wanna flee

          silent plea

If it's eternal sleep
Do we still somehow dream?
University of Chicago
I do want you on my team

Don't remember much of Paris
Do remember Gamla Stan
Scifi bookstore
Avoid the wrath of Khan

Walnut Heights, Ohio
Frank's pizzeria
Mayberry Elementary School
Almost I can see ya

Snow Falling on Cedars
And in my lonely mind
Her smile is such comfort
I wanna travel blind

                 Find?

Arrogant American women
Shy and geeky men
California sun
San Francisco Zen

A little basketball
Scifi does pretend
She's my enemy
Do I have a friend?

            Wends.

Tired. Lonely. Solitude.
Summer sun has come
John Denver music
Taipei 101

Ambiguous. Crazy Nights.
Florida in the rain
The death of Thomas Aquinas
The life of Avila, Spain

Portland. Japanese tea.
Tired, laying in bed
Please protect my boys, O Life,
Long after I am dead

Blue. Green. Baltic Sea.
Scifi and fantasy books
She meets me in the bath
Creme brulee I cooks

                   Stockholm!

I often read theology
Even when I can't believe in God
Yo soy un isolato
Yo soy solo Todd

I like religious architecture
Scifi movies
Vegetarian tacos
Young adult books

My son says
His English teacher
Has got no idea
Just how mean she looks

Hopkins in Ireland
Emily in Amherst alone
Me in tears in Berkeley
Zero at the Bone

           Unknown!