Once was a girl,
nameless to say,
family had problems,
so she couldn't stay.

Forced into a relationship,
with one so wrong,
Nothing alike,
but no harm done.

Silence, Silence,
Beauty and Dusk,
Wake up to sunshine,
voice full of husk.

Slept in his arms,
but I must go,
far far away,
for his heart my explode.

with love and kindness,
sadnes and tears,
i pack my bag,
before i fear.

they will find me,
i know they will.
This has gone to far,
So i spurge and take one last pill.

body found,
lying on the floor,
he whom she ran away from,
actually loved her.

My heart was aching from writing to you,
A letter that defined my feelings toward you.

As hard as it may seems.
As fragile as your souls it may be.

That shows our inseparability.
Yet all of my sins that you have devoured purging the path of Darkness and Sadnes all the way.
It may be unforgiven because the Devil was once an Angel himself.

Yet he was threw to the darkest, deepest pit of the World.
Is that a desirable and suitable place I shall be?

I sense that rejection is not a failure, getting back together is not a no-hoper.
But still, the root is your truly pure-hearted soul.

All is yours and not mine.

The 'was' in we. The 'had' in us. The togetherness shrinks deeply as my sorrow turns deeply hallow.

Into unexpressed words, rhymed with the loneliest soul in the world.
Undefined by feelings and emotions.

This is the letter, I made for you, my darling.

I don't know how,
Such sadnes could fall into
Such empty hands,
And still feel like progress.
Like sand through a strainer
Piece by piece perfectly
Fitting.
Yet falling through.
Truth lies in the small spaces
Between the metal weaving.
Spinning.
Snowflakes falling on pavement.
Cement
In my room. A draft
Under my bed
Like the monster in his eyes,
When he tells me
His love for me
Is slipping between his fingers.

I wanna smile on ur face dont wanna see u cryin m beging on my knees,u make myself complete and u r the 1 for me,dont think i'll let u go,honey we r mountain stone,no 1 can push us far away from 1 another,as we know we r made for each other,Ur smile makes my day great,ur hug makes me a feel which i can never forget and wait,when we will b 2gether for ever,so that i can see u before my eyes for ever,life without u feels m a fish,without water cant survive any more and i just list,my last wishes and i which on top u r there,u make my life beautifulcuz u r my princes ecliar,cuz u r d sweetest d must loving person i've seen,and my life picture go on with you on a screen,it'll the best love story for ever,my smile without u can never be seen and my life will fill with a sadnes river,but i know u r my loveu r my allluv my dear i just wanna give u my all

Sometimes
when I look at old pictures of you,
I cant remember you.
I cant remember
what used to look like
or what your face would look like now if it was looking back at me.
Because when I see you,
I see the sadness.
The sadness that I feel
without your presence
and the sadnes
that took you away from me.
I see the life you lived
that many times I couldn't be a part of.
I see the silence
that housed your suffering,
but also the joy that you gave
to every person that has passed through you.
I see the empty chair on my wedding day
and the vacant arms around my children.
I see myself reaching for you
and crying your name when I'm alone and forgotten.
So when I look at you,
I dont see your face.
I dont see your gray hairs
or brown eyes or fake smile.
I see your past,
and my future
and everything in between 
and I miss it.
I miss you.

slowly
waiting
for just the right moment
It’s been building up for days
I need it to explode and release me
all the anger
sadnes
I want to let go and scream
I can’t keep it in
let me the hell out of
the cage I call my mind
I growl and scream in frustration
nothing will happen
so frustrated
I can’t even be me
I just want to scream
every curse I know at the whole world
nothing happens
****

how does one follow a poet?
the morning tea/coffee/***** in hand
pepsi too if you're young and GRAND

setting down at desk/table or floor
settling in to your favorite nook
PC laptop or notebook

you go home to see who's up
you read and read
and never give up

there's sadnes, anger
and heartbreak galore
laughter and so much more

wisdom and something
that gives you pause
wows uhuhs and applause

you find your favorites
and undiscovered gems
poets all true to the end

the craft is your own
the voyage to find
just who it is controlling your mind

And am forced to make sense of everything
People cling to emotional stuff
And shove love down our throats

I care she said
That's why my tears never dry whenever you are far from here

That's why I die a little
Cause my brother felt sadnes
And my sister stumbled
And suddenly family is everything

But you have to wonder
What happens to family
If greed takes over

And the love for possessions
Takes away the love
And its value increases
And suddenly you care
And you care so much about the earth
And the wealth that blinds
Most if not all

But you don't care about them
Or love
And suddenly they
Ain't everything
But MONEY is everything
you thought

A MAD WORLD, MY MASTERS

I cut my self
out of the mirror.

My reflection
tinkles to the floor.

I sweep up
these shards of self

with red
dust pan and brush.

Well, that's enough
of this

me
for the moment.

I think to
my self

and wander off
to find

the me
I have

yet to be
discarding

what I have been
reading

Middleton's
A MAD WORLD, MY MASTERS.

*

Tears for Fears MAD WORLD comes on the radio as I fall out of my(self)and death guts my world whilst reading  A MAD WORLD, MY MASTERS.

"Tis a mad world (my masters) and in sadnes / I travail'd madly in these dayes of madnes."

"All around me are familiar faces
Worn out places, worn out faces
Bright and early for their daily races
Going nowhere, going nowhere
Their tears are filling up their glasses
No expression, no expression
Hide my head I want to drown my sorrow
No tomorrow, no tomorrow."