"noa" poems
it feels like pulling fabric out of drawers
and none of it fits
last night, you put everything in the dryer
and fell asleep while
the things you thought you knew
tumbled and knotted and turned into
an unfamiliar mess
it feels like a bumblebee landing on your shoulder
you’re supposed to stay still
and wait for it to move on
until it realizes you are not a flower
it doesn’t
it stays and buzzes in your ear until
you turn to dust or learn to scream
but then, one day
it’ll feel like waking up to
rays of sun through the window
when you haven’t slept in weeks
like forgotten pocket change
like a present on your half-birthday
like an entire april without rain
and it’ll feel like
it was always there—
you’d just forgotten
to turn the light on
Jun 18, 2018
Jun 18, 2018 at 2:03 PM UTC
from sea to sea
and between one rest to another
all my heart desired was the
waves of your love towards me
~Noa Barak~
Mar 24, 2016
Mar 24, 2016 at 12:33 PM UTC
And then there was orange, glinting in a pile
from the ground outside my second story window.
I sit and count the scattered papers on my
bedroom floor, thinking, "Maybe someday the
past and present will meet," though I know full-well
that they already have.
Now it is twofold, it is insult to injury, it is
twenty seven eleven.
We are lies, aren't we? We are thankful for
the unknown. My father sips scotch and devours the
truth. I catch my connecting flight and travel back
in time. The man in the blue coat is replaced by
the man in the black hat, the man with the feather
hat, and the man with naught but war paint.
It is like the movies, I decide. I settle on a log bench
and read the classifieds in the newspaper.
Mother and father tell me to count my blessings
as if they are sheep. I tell them that their analogy
is flawed. Morning comes and I tie a string around
my ring finger, proclaiming, "I am here to collect
thanks! Bring out your wish lists and your tattered
diaries!" I am a liar; I am thankful for nothing but
sickness and ink. I write "twenty seven eleven"
three hundred times and vow to make a difference.
I fill my car and my fridge and roller blade up
the mountain, chanting, "Noa! Noa! 'Oia'i'o! A'ole
mahalo nui!" My cries go unheard and I sulk
back down, a landslide for the ages.
I begin to write poetry that oozes pretension and
reflects obsession. I try to pronounce the disease
and instead find myself bound to a table crushed by
feast and fear. I have written "twenty seven eleven"
on my forehead and am forced to listen to the "Lord"s
and "grateful"s and "God"s and I have had enough.
I break free and head for reason.
May 5, 2011
May 5, 2011 at 1:06 AM UTC
Dear Golden Gate Bridge,
Can you give her back to me?
Split the water in two and I will be Moises
Angry and scared,
desperate and delusional
like Dolly was about Jolene
She fell in love with your edges and your deceiving depths
And you never saw right through her and thought that maybe she just wanted you to be the sloppy second for once. Rebound to a better life.
Splash!
You are a ruthless lover but I'm starting to understand the fascination with that edge of yours.
Breathe in. Breathe out.
Jolene, I need to be baptized in your love
And I will assure you that I can swim and you will pretend to care.
Moises will fly to a sure fall. Let him drown. He would have never made it to Noa's arc anyways.
Let me drown.
Oct 18, 2017
Oct 18, 2017 at 4:02 PM UTC
The mourning is
about it never being
the way I needed
it to be.
My life itself a
disturbance of mourning
Stands in my life. Before me. The
dead girl under the bed
her skin transparent as mine
disappears. I come out
and there is no mother. Sometimes
she appears and there is no telling what
attracts her warmth. Approaches and departs.
Becomes desire,
the loot of her mourning.
Empty womb pillow. I am not
enrapt. Its’ tufts flap my fringe.
Behind me, at my sides
stands mourning.
I have only to be busy with your burial.
Sharpening flint to a pillar
pile to a mound
and turn from it.
It is gone
forever.
And I am.
By Noa Vardi, M. D.
Jan 23, 2021
Jan 23, 2021 at 5:23 AM UTC
It is Maori language week here in NZ, so...
Ko te ahua o taku aroha
He ngawari taku aroha
Ka pupuhi nga puawai ngawari
i runga kahui puna mahana
Kei te takaro toku aroha
he matotoru
kopikopiko i roto i te tito aroha
Ko taku aroha he ra raumati
takai te kare
ite marama me te mahana
Aroha katoa ahau
te kotahi te honi pi
huri noa i ahau i roto i toku ngakau
~~~~~~~*~
and in translation..
The nature of my love
my love is gentle
soft petals blown
on a warm spring breeze
my love is playful
a tender tickle
enveloped in a loving tease
my love is a summer day
wrapped in emotion
clearly felt and warm
my love is all for you
the one true honey-bee
as around my heart you swarm.
J.C. honey-tiger 09/09/2019.
Sep 8, 2019
Sep 8, 2019 at 10:29 PM UTC
Goeie avond nostalgie,
wat fijn dat ik u zie, zien
mag. Sinds FIFA veertien
lag ik al aan uw voeten,
fijn dat ik u mag begroeten.
Vanavond gaan we drinken,
tuimelen, duiken, vallen, zinken
in een zee van liefde voor elkaar.
Eenmaal, andermaal, niemand bezwaar?
Dan leg ik mezelf in de watten,
vanavond gaan we boiten.
Jun 14, 2019
Jun 14, 2019 at 8:17 AM UTC