"heavyset" poems
days pass like other days, just
lullabies in single,
you, and me, and the end of everything:
how we had found thoughts, like life, unraveling,
in that pristine and angular field,
locked up- brilliant, crystalline, and in voices shaded pale cherry,
some statement of ephemeral lust, no doubt;
we've always been fools,
holding ideals, far too grand
for the size of our routine worries
and, now,
the clock's still claiming moments,
the faucet hasn't lost it's gauze, yet,
the radio's crackling paper moons, in sevenths,
and, me,
recalling a patchwork sentiment and, then, little charming you, you, you, you, you...
made up of scattered electricity, you always leave me lost and drowning;
drowning, drowning, drowning, and
watching those soft-changing colours, through the drifting canopy as
brine-soaked seafloors meander, take place, and
me, falling,
dreaming in shades of slow loss.
so, good night to all the lovers,
all the shimmering faces;
to all the lights of the cities,
all the pleading droplets of rain,
all the shortwave signals, furrowing their ways up north,
to all the heavyset expressions, long led goodbyes,
all the sorrows, left a mess for so many years.
good night, that is all,
good night.
Dec 27, 2012
Dec 27, 2012 at 10:02 AM UTC
4:00 a.m again.
The bluegreen lanterns fly the sky,
Guding me home.
My eyes fall like bricks.
Sinking into the water,
The overflowing madness in my mind.
Salted by the drops within my eyes.
As the water begins to stir,
My mind becomes a blur.
Blackened liquid waves rage in a craze
Winter winds blow.
Send ice and snow.
As i toss a match to set the wave
Ablaze.
This clawing red monster,
I let her grow stronger.
She takes my hand,
Tell's me she'll show me the way.
A turn of the wheel,
A press of the foot,
And all i know
Turned to soot.
And then my friend.
That winter wind.
Turns back the wheel once again.
The ash and gloom,
My blazing doom.
Only the beast of my heavyset eyes.
That bluegreen mist, lighting the skies.
And those lanterns float, my guides.
Tighten my grip on the wheel,
While gently caressing the pedal.
It's 4:01 a.m again.
Nov 18, 2018
Nov 18, 2018 at 4:00 PM UTC
Fix your posture, sit up straight
Your smoker's cough, your wobbly gait
Fix my problems, I'm a reprobate
Find what I lost and compensate
For 40 years nothing really changes
In 100 years, mostly still the same
1000 years it feels barely gone
Rearrange the furniture and carry on
I saved your seat on the city bus
I whispered "Please don't self-destruct"
Amongst strangers I stared at the wall
and wondered if I really knew you at all
For 20 years you held on tightly
Kept the faith, maybe wavered slightly
In 40 years they'll still be deciding
The differences are a change in lighting
Lightning strikes in a fitful shake
The world swirls in it's peaceful wake
I felt stunned, even cast aside
You looked vacant, dewey eyed
Your mouth set, your words hating
Your eyes wanting
Only wanting
Fear
1000 years make you feel clever
I used to forget, now I remember
Everything
100 years make you heavyset
I used to remember, now I forget
Everything
but your eyes wanting
Always wanting
Feb 23, 2019
Feb 23, 2019 at 8:19 AM UTC