A ***** drills inside my core
It nags, graps, pans, the hands
They knot in spins and twists

My crux left at the river side
Breathing,gasping fast, faster
Body out in the open rawness

Persisting resistance of the force
An outward shield winning
Winged left,right, up, down

Another day, a greater pace
A passive taste, ranting in haste
In bricks *****, all I taste is hate

All walking in dead silence
Heads shouting with dreams
A roll of sweet and sour sate

Echoes of taxes and budgets
How will they evolve us?
Snatching more from pockets

The rockets burst to mock us
Pulling our all to fund them
Nuclear bombs creating tombs

Distribution of lies and wars
Missiles disposing as lyrics
An objectification of reason

Figure brushes on magazines
Incisions of bits and **** hoots
To boost of the hot posed ***

No truth is scaffolded as real
A psychological brainwash
Pollutes and limits indefinately

Entering the void with rainy eyes induced by the manipulating agent who was undercover under her covers. And as the rush came this lush dame was soon abandon in the emptiness which were her hopes and dreams/ she could not cope but scream in the darkness that now became her home. She graps at truth but it eludes her, only the false promises that were pumped into her heart remain. They whisper to her constantly, spewing poison in a fading mind, eviserated spirit; body laying in twisted sheets staring at a pitch black celling that reminds her of the heart that was cruely tricked and abandoned longing for the simpler times, but is now choked by the thorns of lost love.  Faith fades, confusion takes hold of once unshakable consciencness of oneself, paradise is lost; a dystopia now surrounds a once blissful secure island of Elysian splendor. Left alone, scorned; this furious angel is being driven maddingly insane by the cold silence that has taken the place of a loving embrace. A million thoughts and questions flood her mind but only one replays itself, "why"? And each time a tiny piece of her heart falls into her hand and slips out of the cracks like grains of sand. But this once radiant muse that would make even the mighty aphrodite envious must pull herself together for the burning light of reality is shining through the darkness cutting through revealing the vacancy which she did not think was possible and face the truth that her thoughts were not her own, but a well contructed fairy tale told from the parasitic snake that fed off her passionate trusting heart. She cries for release to come soon, but alas a new day is steady approaching and now she must hide that pain with a untruthful smile to take attention from the empty void left in her chest; as for the rest? That is unknown......

Anxiety
It's there when I eat
And it's right next to me when I fall asleep
It's there when I'm walking
And it's leaning over my shoulders when I cry
I've learnt to live this way
The crippling fear of being alive has consumed me
It's always there
It graps me, pulls me in, leans over for a kiss, but puts a knife right through my back
I can still taste the fear on my lips as I go down on my knees
I never went this low to the ground
I feel dizzy as I try to pull myself up
But it keeps on pushing me back
I will never get up
Anxiety

Jealousy has slithered up to me.
Grasping my neck as I struggle to be free.
It has graps of my heart with  the bite of poison,
Which puts anger and frustration there.
I can't breath and everything is dark.
Just like the way you talk about her.
Dark.
No I am not saying that I hate her
But because of her, I am dying by the power of jealousy.
Another bite,
Another sting,
I feel the deathly poison run in my viens.
It is so painful,
So fast.
I cry for help.
But no one, not even you can bring me back
From this awful poison of
Jealousy.

When solitude graps me
my heart beat rate at top
fear takes me in his arms
all that moments starts
wondering in mind
I cant stop that thoughts
which makes me sad
I scream all time
to let me go
make me free from this
thoughts, that promises
I feel so much burden
with all responsibility
I wants to escape,
to be that guy again
who can
smile,
Love,
care,

Body
What lies deep inside of me
That the whole world cant see
Is it my broken heart
Hanging and torn apart
is it the mind scrambled around
Maybe the secrets that were never found
It could be the endless lies
That rest behind my eyes
Closed mouth unable to speak
My hands closed pray my soul to keep
The soft steps I take to stay hidden
Ears to listen to the stories that are forbidden
The graps of the wrist to keep from leaving
Stomach aches and pains due to disbelieving
Or is it my soul in which was lost along the way
The world will never know what it really is I have to say
Rosey nose and blushed cheeks
Signs of a love that one seeks
Chest pounding at every breath
Could be the brain fighting death
The world will see only a brief image
Of a girl whose life only mimics
What lies deep inside me
That the world can only see
A body of a tamed dream
But deep inside is all screams

How I wish for
the moon’s embrace
in the nightly skies,
admiring and kissing
its radiant face
and silver shiny skin;

How I long for
it to draw near
fulfilling my heart’s
greatest desire
without pulling us apart;

How I want for
the gravitational pull
of fate, to bring us closer
and make our fate
converged together;

Sadly, reality holds
you from my graps,
and like distant galaxies
We shall remain,
To avoid tidal fluctuations

In distant allure, I am content
with distant love that laments.