"demonds" poems
the demonds were inside of me
dont get me wrong
i didnt want them to win over my mind
not even in the slightest
but all at once i did
it was as if they found my trigger
and they pulled it all the way back
waited for the perfect moment
and with two clicks they released it
releasing the demons
allowing them further into my mind
and into my imagination
making it go wild
the demons were my constant high
only the after affect was worse
(a.b)
Dec 1, 2013
Dec 1, 2013 at 11:50 PM UTC
My demons trying to escape.
I can feel him.
Pulling and tugging.
Trying to do,
Whatever he can
To just break.
Break apart from the emotions.
Break apart from the tears.
Break apart from the lies.
He's trying to lead me
But I won't follow.
Where's he going?
He'll break through soon
I can already tell.
Rip my chest open
And pore out into he world.
Will I follow,
Who will know
Once I stitch up the wounds, and he goes.
Jul 11, 2014
Jul 11, 2014 at 1:44 AM UTC
my heads aching, because my minds racing , holes in ma socks because of the floor that am pacing worried about these Demonds I’m soon to be facing
up at night in a cold sweat , heads a mess ****** up mindset , clenching my fists whilst gripping that tight chest and i feel like it’s hard to grasp a ****** breath
how have I let
it get so bad was it because of how I acted , always naughty for mum and dad , horrible to my mrs and kids treating em bad, or was it because I was failed by the care system as a young lad ? is that why i feel like I’m going crazy , insane or mad uncontrollable thinking flash backs in ma brain making me sad , thoughts racing, changing fast just please go away , how long will they last I will never forget but I hope that they pass
I no I got to open up but I feel hopeless , I feel uncomfortably soulless , probably not 2 hard to notice , I no I need to be strong and get focused but right now I’m at my lowest point in my life literally feel like giving up this fight but I need to do what’s right I made this step forward so I hope everyone was telling the truth I hope that they are-right , saying we will all help you be there for you , telling me it’ll be alright
Kuz av bin like
awake with no food for more than 10 days in a row trying to escape my mind but I have no where to go , there used to be days when I felt amazing have a vibrant glow but snap straight back , to vexin , supper stressin , this is real life no messing struggling finding it hard to cope , hopelessly falling back down depressions slope
for my family , friends and loved ones I no it’s got to be hard the things iv done the things iv said , they never leave my head and it pains me so much feeling mentally scarred, so many times iv tried to change but I feel to weak to do it alone
so today I’m ganna try open up , I feel scared and it feels hard , but I’m begging for help to start focusing good , a new chapter in my life am closing the last ****** one up , a better partner a better dad a better all round happier man
the end seems so far but I hope there is light , amma hold onto that to get me thu this fight , I just don’t feel as tho I can do it without help , I feel mentally drained, emotionally strained help me please get these demons out , and get them tamed .
Nov 3, 2018
Nov 3, 2018 at 3:51 AM UTC
i live in this place they call home
how? i don't know
i wonder sometimes
where I'm at in this world
where i belong
but its not here not with them
i want to be in heaven
but I'm stuck in hell
with all theis demonds
and the devil himself
i can't get out but i want to
help me find where i belong
Dec 3, 2012
Dec 3, 2012 at 10:47 AM UTC
Sitting there
Silent in the still room
White walls surrounding me
No windows, no seats
Not being able to think of a single thing
Feeling enclosed in a small padded room
Hugging yourself tightly, not being able to let go
Nothing but silence
Not a sound to be heard
The dim flicker of the light above
Casting smudged white shadows of your demonds on the walls
Your only company being the split second of the shadow
Feeling more and more tired by the minuet
Drifting off into the darkness
Slowly letting go
You begin to fade
Becoming nothing
But the shadow that shows for only a split second
-MH
Dec 9, 2016
Dec 9, 2016 at 4:24 PM UTC
Leopards
jump in a file
what is going on
then a wizard appears
computer down
all contact lost
***
how did that go so wrong ;-0
demonds worry
when the wizard come near
just shake his hand
and dream
like he did.
Jan 23, 2015
Jan 23, 2015 at 2:28 PM UTC
And I'll tell you this now, that I'm just trying to live and survive.
I don't want to die anymore, I just want to love myself for once.
I want to live, Live Through This.
No matter what I do to help people in the world, it seems as if it is never enough.
And all I do is keep giving, and giving.
But, am I living?
No!
I keep draining myself.
I can't help people when they don't help themselves.
That is all I ever seem to do, it is like I am glued to it.
I don't want to hurt myself anymore because there's no point in it.
I don't want to hit and beat myself up after one simple thing goes wrong.
I can't understand why people let their demonds destroy them.
If I did that then there would be no more me!
I want to be free.
I just want to love myself, survive and live, Live Through This!
(S.K.H.)
Jun 24, 2014
Jun 24, 2014 at 7:14 PM UTC
So many thoughts racing
I just keep pacing
These devilish thoughts are the ones I'm facing
So i just gotta turn away
No i aint runnin
But im starting a new day
I sent my demonds out to play
I locked the door behind them and told they could not stay
I put my emotions in a box and sent them away
I look well and alive but deep inside I don't wanna face the day
I wanna lock my self in a room
Because I still got missory and depression knocking at my door
I got anxiety and bi polar creeping threw the floor
I can't go back to the old me but he has me pinned to the floor
I can't take this ******** any more
Foot on the gas and it's to the floor
Trying to stay on track
But the simple little crack turns into the canyon
I feel so deserted an abandon
Family don't even notice it or care
Friends are hardly even there
Felt like I was almost there
The top was in reach
Now I gotta find every peice of the puzzle again
New shapes
New peices
Mar 30, 2019
Mar 30, 2019 at 3:59 PM UTC
She’s an angel but her wings were clipped,
The moment her heart beated from her chest it was stripped,
They say her smile was worth gold,
But over time her smiles grew cold,
Her loyalty was treasure,
Till they used that for there own pleasure,
Her voice could put even demonds asleep,
But now even if you begged she wouldn’t make a peep,
Now that everything was taken from her
Let her heal,
Soon she will be that angel again and you’ll see that smile and it’ll be real..
Dec 14, 2018
Dec 14, 2018 at 10:40 PM UTC