Each cut...is a message.
But most can't Decipher
They don't understand the constant panic
The fear of life and death
The pain of smiling when you want to cry
The feeling of self Hatred and being unworthy.
Useless. A waste of space. Not belonging

They only see what you show them
Never trying to get a better look at the picture painted Before their eyes
Eve. If they knew they'd just ignore it.
Like everyone else do.

Each cut is a symbol
Every scratch is a mark
All my bruises are reminders

I hate to see them.
Clear on my skin
Hidden like the emotions
Deep with in

I drown in my own regrets
Tasting every bit of sorrow
Talking with doubt everyday
Feeling numb
But caged in by A burning fire of rage

I can't explain it
I don't want to say
To communicate this...with someone other than me
I'd rather die

But I don't think you understand yet...
The hidden picture
All behind the scenes

Maybe look harder....
For the real me

You say I'm wrong
but you know I'm right
which is why we always fight.

I try to be the best I can
but you just want the attention of a man
not the love or care I give

threatening to take my life
when its already yours
I want to make you happy

you just want the money
you don't care
I don't understand...
I want to love you
but I just can't

No matter what I do
it's never enough
I'll do want you to want

just please accept my love
I'll do anything for you
as long as your mine

On your bed
you lay on your back
wrapped up in your favorite cover
Your lamp is on
bringing light to your room
Not too dark but not too bright
a book in hand
One you seem to enjoy
You carefully read over most of the words
sometimes going too fast and restarting the page
You may laugh at what they say
Or cry from the loss of a character
maybe even believe you're in the story yourself
With the peace and quiet of the world around you
It's easy to get lost in your book
Page after page
You get eager to know what happens next
not getting tried of the action, adventure, or romance
All of it keeping you on edge
You read until your eyes wake
and the sun begins to rise
not realizing how you lost time
But all is well
it was worth it
in the end
You finish the book
and the story ends
Now you seek out another
just for the adrenaline
of a new world
What will you read next...

Day into night
The moon always in the sky
at anytime Day or Night
As the Sunsets
it's hidden behind the moon
giving it a dim glow
star shows for miles and miles
does it ever end?
most people are sleep
while some stay awake
Day into Night
it's all the same
it's not complete darkness
the moon is just not there
Day into Night
but nothing is here
Day into night
The moon always in the sky
at anytime Day or Night
As the Sunsets
it's hidden behind the moon
giving it a dim glow
star shows for miles and miles
does it ever end?
most people are sleep
while some stay awake
Day into Night
it's all the same
it's not complete darkness
the moon is just not there
Day into Night
but nothing is here

Father is my death,
life is my mother.
Pain is my sister
fear is my brother.
Anger is my earth
while depression is my ocean
Anxiety is my air
My broken heart is the ground
And my lost soul is the sky
and when it rains i cry
Forrest fires of rage
Thunder storms of hate
The shadow covering more the half of the ground
Evil intentions for me....
Thought of suicide
Cuts on my wrist
Harming each tree in my mind
Hurting the plant every time i bled
Like a poison to my head
Blocking out the light
letting all plant life die
refusing to replace each seed
Soon letting the rivers run dry
Leaving me thirsty
killing the happiness that once flowed through me
Like striking down animal with a gun.
But it's just me........
Killing my own f**ked up world