Thank you
To the boy
Who smiled
At me
Today

It went
A long way

"Not giving a ****"
and "acceptance"
are two entirely
different things.

        One lets you
   walk away,
           and the other
        lets you sleep
   with yourself at night.

   Don't mistaken the two for
          being the same.

I wanted to thank you
for being everything
to me whenever
I had nothing to
call my own.

You didn't just
get me out of a "rut."

You saved me
from the empty,
soulless shell in which
I was about to
become.

Last night,
in a moment where I was lost somewhere between doubt and honesty, I found myself left asking only more questions;
       Left with more answers that
    I don't have "right now."

This moment revealed something to me, as well as made me think of many other people in my life.

We are all just kids with
commitment issues that are
trying to make everything
"okay."

I've been trying
to convince
myself that I
don't
need anyone
at all.

Just sleep,

and long
intervals
of insanity.