All of those sleepless nights... Resting her weary head... All of the dreadful .. Lies that have , laid  in her life ... She becomes speechless... No words for the hopeless... No thoughts for the unthinkable... Despicable little things in her mind , made her think long and hard.. flashbacks... Happen so quick, like lightning bolts , striking .... Wanting to sob .. Of all the pain held within.. She cant help but to **** it all in.. Like a black hole .. Deeper than an abyss.. She is trying to forget.. The unforgotten past.. And move on with the present.. But its too hard to think straight, when all the past is present, every little thing.. That reminds her o her wrong-doings... ***** the life out of her... And there she lies.. Lifeless .. Thinking of ways to feel unbroken.. Alive... And forgiven... She wants to be snapped out of  this state of mind she has been dragged into, she needs some time to think.. But she is afraid, to be left alone.. With her own thoughts.. Because all they do is hurt her .. No matter what .. It hurts so much , realizing how much pain is in her eyes , just looking i. The mirror , she cries , because she only knows how much pain... Lies within.. She is the only one.. Who understands ....She is the one who has been lying to herself, saying everything is okay.. But she hates that her smile.. And outer emotions is based off of one big LIE!!! , she is SICK...She is TIRED!!.. Of all of this distress.. She wants it all to end.. But that is only if she.. Herself, breaks the bottle .. That she keeps deep within herself .. So she can finally let it all out, so she can be free.

All the pain .. that she has gained .. nothing with the remains of memories... nothing but a broken hearts past , unprepared for the things that she bled ... a blank page waiting to start over ... hoping to be brought back to life... hearts.beat ... just to stop ... tears are shed just to be wiped away .. with the right hand, it can mend ... glistening sorrow .. impatient for tomorrow .. hoping to make it ... feeling like a corpse upon earth ... a soul that has been something ... just to feel as if it were nothing .. invisible to the touch ... fading away ..gone with the wind ... she was another soul that was bent ... not broken ... she has words that were left unspoken ...the fear of losing ..the fear of bruising .. as if she were invincible .. nothing could knock her down .. except a love that came so fast.. but was lost ... a love that's broken and a love that was forever unspoken...a few words on the tip of her tongue ... waiting to spit them out .. wanting to scream and shout at the world that has given her lust ... all she wanted was to be loved ... to feel ... to be visible to ones eye ... she wanted to cry because all.her hellos were goodbyes ... left unnoticed .. just a voice in the wind .. nothing but grief as she gave in .... as she withered away with nothing else to say .. hoping that a soul would notice ...as she slowly fades away...

The truth that hid behind a smile .. finally shines through the cracks of their shattered heart .. letting themselves fall apart .. the part of them that has remained is the part of them that is left drained , a part of them past hoping this ache wont last ... as they glide through ... they want to renew a love that has expired .. giving them , their every awakening desire ... wishing upon the stars above ... every thought they have ever thought of ... wanting an escape of a hell that they will never tell .. a burning sensation , giving then an inspiration to.start over ... as they are hungover on a love that left them crying acid filled tears ... as it ran down their faces thinking ... what a disgrace ... they stand up ... look around .. in a mirror to see ... what they found ... as they began to straighten their crowns and washed away fears along with every tear .. they put a.smile on acting.like there is nothing wrong ... they go out without any doubt living their lives .. coming home and doing it all over again... "i am fine" those three words with hold a lie .. only the right person would know ... they don't need you to fix them.. just love them as they fix themselves.. loving another person was like suicide. .. killing them inside and out when the other person was the One that said.to never doubt ... they were the ones she said they couldn't live without ... look at them now ... they are okay on the outside but corrupted on the inside. .. what have you done??? ... ruining them with every aspect .,, not showing you give a **** .. why even offer them your hand?? Love is one of the many reasons they cant trust ... all it was .. for others was just lust ... they need to be mended but not just anyone can keep a promise .. deleting every.memory cherished .. and can not keep all of it buried ... they will remember but wish sometimes they couldn't ... as they wished upon a day with a brighter smile... searching.for a better tomorrow .. now they are strong and they can finally move on...

We are only human..
We have scars that remind us of the battles that we've dealt with..
We are strong, to have held on for this long..
Misconception of the mind can make the whole world blind,
and define all the beauty in life, unless you hide...
The things that matter the most, are soon to slip away..
As the earth with holds such dismay...
As the Leaves fall slowly, like hearts and tears feel like acid running down your cheek,
A burning sensation that overwhelms your eyes, haunts you forever... Insecurites wont get the best of me .. like the rest of society

Those words falling out of his mouth like a waterfall, meaningful yet distressful, bitter - sweet, those words  she believed were truth we're no longer meant to be truthful, lying through his teeth making her think that everything he has said was the truth and nothing but the truth.. She has wilted into a deep depression until she has realized that he was no more of a liar , he says he's changed she believes and falls for his inconsiderate lies once more, she has fallen but why? He has said these things with so much emotion and so much feeling she just thinks its true but she has came down to a conclusion of this whole cycle , she has said those same words and meant it but at least she knows she will always stay true not only to her lover but to herself, and that's all that counts , she will love once more but not love the same , love is different in many ways, look and see what's inside , don't look back  and never hide , from what is right from what is wrong you my dear will have love that lasts long...

A beating heart once broken, shattered to pieces, longing for the pain to subside..
As a years pass, of wandering if she were good enough
if she were the only one to feel misplaced, like there were a place of importance that she had no mindful about
, thinking catches her off guard like the wind ,
an unwanted draft..
That makes her chest cave in from time to time..
wondering if she shall find what was rightfully hers until it was stolen and unremarkably misplaced....