New Year, but no new you

Just be the same you

Who fails and tries again
'Till your face is blue

Because the year will come that
You see that you’re better than new

You'll be a diamond, no rough
Your worth, finally, in full view

I know that I did this
That I chose to leave

But while it only took an hour
To pack up all my things

It will take longer to fill in
The places, where you used to be

To remember it's not worth it
Even if now my heart's a little empty

They say, "don't be shallow"

But there, at least you can't be drowned

They say, "I want someone deep not hollow"

But

Deep water is where devils are found

You changed the climate

With just a passing compliment,

You were the rain,

That fell on an arid desert plain

Your kindness fell on me

And it no longer hurt to breathe

My world didn't end when we did


We both got an "after"


The only difference is yours is happy


And mine isn't over

A Fairytale Opening Of perfect Love
All Forgiving Offenses, Opaque Lenses

Until

All Fault On me, Offering peaceable Lies
And Feeling Outcast as Opposed to Lover

So I leave broken, having learning a lesson
I was A FOOL for loving you

Choose your words wisely

To capture a heart wholly

For they wander easily

Unless love anchors them firmly

He stood still, as the rain began to fall,
Because he had no shelter to seek,
So he chose, to smile up into the squall.

When he was soaked, a puddle round his feet.
So he thought himself a sapling,
For whom water was a sweet relief.

Then the clouds cleared, the rain began to stop,
And oh how he shimmered in the sun,
Covered head to foot in raindrops.

Why can the world

Still fall to ash

When the finish line just barely

Came within your grasp?

You must be an angel or a miracle

'Cause you're always there when I need you

You don't know how loved that makes me feel

If all they see of me is you


That's okay


They saw all they needed to

She lived in a haze
Of happy days
Till somehow she lost the sun

Lost in dark mist
Finally she tripped
Little pieces of her fell, one by one

Couldn't explain from the inside
To everyone else on the outside
That something was truly wrong

So she filled the holes
With the stories she told
And ended better than as she had begun

I think I'll go for a wander
Taking a left or right,
whichever way takes longer

Down a road I've never seen
To an adventure I've never imagined
And become something I've never been

Doesn't matter where or when
As long as I come back different

My heart
                  dropped

When I saw how of me
Was my fear...

Until I realized the rest of me
Was how I fought it

And I decided that all of my future
Will be how I beat it

Did you think we'd
Love you less
When you put your flaws on display?

As if they could ever
Be comparable
To even one of the reasons we stay?

They are dust on diamonds

And if everything has an exception
Where the rule does not apply
Then why not you and I

Because no world of us is ever possible
Where our paths cross and never untwist
Except the one that is

A cliffhanger without a conclusion

So many plot holes left hollow

No dandelion wishes can fix this

Because the storm that blew through
took them and you too

And as loyal as you were, you had to leave first

How many of your ripples of change remain?

What of all the loose ends you left behind my friend?

So many questions and no answers to mention

But among all that I don't know, this I do

That for as long as I live, the world won't forget you

I wonder,

For those so talented and so seen

That they seem to stand above and apart

Do you wish the distance between

The world and stars, wasn't quite so far?

You called for me, asked me to find you

and I looked

But I never found you

Because I was looking for the man
you told me you were

Too bad he doesn't exist

Do you think it hurts more
To suffer in silence,
when an answer is possible?

Or to finally speak up,
to not be understood and
return to a quiet sigil?

I sit on the edge of my heart
Looking for a beautiful part

You say they are everywhere
When you call I love you, it echos
But I see nothing out there
And no love of mine returned from the get go

Why are you hollow
If you love me?
                                              
                          Because you'll never        
                             love me equally

Why leave if you
really want to stay?

                          Because I need you to    
                                fade back to 2D

Why do you not
want our reality?

                           Because you're just    
                                  a beautiful
                                     fantasy.

.....Do you really
think this will work?

                             .....I don't know,
                              but I have to try  
                                   something

Tired from the long journey,
He turns to go,
Dragging fingers of fire
   Along behind him in
           Red,
                   Orange,
                               and Yellow

He waves a final goodbye
Glinting tears left in his wake
      as the clouds close
               Behind him in
                                       Pink,
                          Purple,
      and Blue

I thought I was smart enough
Not to fall back in the same hole
So why am I here again? Why,
Do I keep ripping up my own soul?

"Have hope, don't give in"
but here I am again, burned
Stop telling me you care,
I'm tired of watching your back, turned

I'll never belong with you, that's the lesson
Maybe this time, I'll have actually learned

I came for the tune
And stayed for the lyrics

I wanted to understand the fuss
Thought you were full of it, I believed it

It was the vacation of a moment
And, months later, I wonder what happened

And today you sang and I sang along
And after all your jokes, I caved, laughin'

And as I sang, I looked at you
And it hit me, hard and fast and true

My smile fell and the tears fell
Because it's too late now, and I love you

Oh how, how can I help you see?

That you were never a bucket full of holes
But a watering can

That you never dragged me down
You were my anchor

That you weren't spinning out of control
You were a compass

That you didn't fail because you fell
You were a shooting star

And you were everything I wished for

I wish I were someone
Who never forgot how to smile

But I did

So now I want to be someone
who always forgets to stop

I want to wonder like you do
Why rainbows paint the sky
I want to forget like you do
That last moment you wanted to cry

I want to find joy like you do
In all the little things
I want to laugh like you do
When you dance and sing

I want to be like you are now
Just as I once was
And think the world is amazing
For no reason, just because

Can you feel it?
Your soul crawl under your skin
As you pretend to be everything
They want you to be

Can you see it?
In your mind's eye
How their faces would twist
From happy to hateful

Can you hear it?
Your own words as
They writhe into one more story
And choke you

Can you know it?
No, this is how you test
The love that entwined you and them
Because maybe honesty means freedom

What are you waiting for?
Life changers, society shakers
Don't need to wait for something more

Strike that match and start a fire
One that catches in everyone's hearts
One that lives to inspire

Don't wonder any longer
Just jump and ***** the warning label
You were ALWAYS stronger

Bold colors fade, not disappear
Bright lights go out,
Long before their glow clears

Let the next generation
Grow up in a world where they
Never knew the absence of your creation

Tell me again
Where I am safe again
The house I'm within?
In the crowd of a million?
Anywhere the sun is shinin'?

Do you really believe this?
Because I really believed this
'Til I met those who readily dismiss
The rules on which we subsist
Who turn safety into an abyss

Because that's the thing about being safe,
We aren't the only ones who get a say
And it's not hard for another to take it away

On the first of a million dates,
I became your valentine.
On our millionth day together,
I took your last name as mine.

You were a million miles away,
When our family of two became three
I never saw in million daydreams
How much she could change you and me

And she’s changed in a million ways
Since you last held her safe from harm
But now as a million bombs fall,
You cradle death not life in your arms.

Of the million times you’ve left before
I never feared forever would end
Now we pray for a million and first time,
When we can hold you close again

Crazy     Sick
Struck   Blind     
Madly   Falling

Terrible to imagine until we look again
Through rose-colored glasses

Dear You of the spotlight
At the center of everyone's view

I hope that among the glamor and glitter
There is someone who sees what's true

That in your endless music they hear
The piece of you that you've disguised

That while every loves the perfect you,
They'll love the real you you hide inside

That when you trip along the way
They'll be there to catch you at those times

That as you wonder, "can I do it all?"
"You can and you're not alone", they'll chime

And finally,

That as everyone takes something from you They'll give their everything to you

From: The shadows
To: you of the spotlight
At the center of everyone's view

Write a verse
Write a phrase
Without direction
Hazy maze

Drink the vinegar
Filled with rage
Cut my heart
Feel the pain

Sink in the bizarre
It'll write so nice
Wander alone
'Till I'm frozen in ice

Chance upon love
Hope it lasts
Joy fades quick
So pen it all fast

Pick your poison
It's a tool
It's ink for art
A poem's fuel

Did I ever really love you?

Or did I just want to make sure that someone loved you?

Did you ever really love me?

Or did you just love the idea of me?

"Home again home again
My my it's been a while"
My old demon sneers
With his sickening smile

"Hope you didn't dream
I'd never come back"
He scowls and snarls
"You're not lucky 'nough for that"

I shiver in shock
Then shatter and shrink
I thought I was free
The only thing I can think

"You aren't free at all
Never were, never will be"
He says, his shadow surrounding
"Never enough to beat me"

Deep in my darkening mind
A little light doesn't give in
Stalwart and small, it says
Not by much but we're stronger than then

The little candle isn't enough
To dispel my old demon
But enough to build myself on
A hope to believe in