trying not to tumble
in a world with so many obstacles
makes it a thousand times harder
but it makes you strong
yet,
at what cost?
destroying every bit of you
until there's almost nothing left
only for you to say 'at least i made it out alive
is that any better than being dead
at least then you won't have to remember

My edge
My straight edge
Cuts deep
And doesn’t want to let go
My straight edge
Loves to make you remember everything
But she wants you to forget too
My straight edge
Loves a game
And she’ll play it with you
My straight edge
Is a force to be reckoned
Beware
My straight edge
Is my worst nightmare
And paradise from hell
My straight edge
Is many things
But never has she left me

Before I Lost you

You were my sun
The azure sky
To scan.  

      After I Lost you

You became
My moon
Desperate to see
You soon.

I got love for myself
The greatest love of all
My heart says,
its pity to love somebody
And my mind thought
Its not worth it at all

To waste time on something
Like stupid love
After it got broken,cheated
hurt and got bore  

now  time to decide
To love nobody else
To wash away my mind and heart
From all the beautiful lies
And bitter sweet memories  

to wake up from the illusion
that i once thought
was pure and real
oh fool me
not again!
i got to recover from this pain

So now
I gotta fill my heart with love of me
obsessed with my own beauty
adoring my self unconditionally

Dreaming about my self
Day and night
That’s possible and it feels right
Its obvious that I love my self so much
And I promise to love me back
so that I will never ever be a broken heart.

Do I have to act good
To make you love me?
Do I have to pretend am perfect
To make you fall for me?
Or hide every part of me
For you not to judge me
Or hate me?
Well, love me or hate me
I'll be care free
I'll be just me
I am not going to act around
What wouldn't represent me
Am not going to try something foolish
That can't be me
It is not because I hate you
Not because I love me
It is just because I am me
and Nothing or nobody
even love could never change me.

Me

Am not my body anymore
cause my body follows my feelings
and things I adore.
am not my mind either
my mind only think about
yesterday,now and latter.
I am my soul from now on
cause that's who I really am
and who i ever will be
so that it remind me
the higher purpose of life
that I got from my creator
the purpose of creation
I came across
the whole and a part
the nothing and everything
knowing,being experiencing
the good the bad and the nothing

being my soul
now I know am not merely existing
because I start living
from his breath I got life
and from his love
I realize that
nothing will tear my soul  and God
apart.  
That I will forever be
his part.