The sun shined on me today
And I found a reason to live again
For the moment
I am the caterpillar out of the cocoon
And the next moment I am crawling
A profound distance
Across a shattered room
Because the sun shines on me today

You had yet to notice me
And I was unafraid to roam
The grass stood tall and at attention
Down the aisle and beyond
Believing that behind me
My winged cape, still weeping,
Will learn to stand alone
I may not see tomorrow
But the sun shines on me today

Carry on to farther markers
While we may never see the shore
Create my solar system stemming
From the burning concrete floor
For life is for the moments
We do not hide away
Even dying, I feel alive
The sun shined on me today

What is my work worth really
Passion only plays on
What luck can fuel
To love something enough
Makes no promises or obligations

Inspired by the hope of the few
I get up and take a look in the mirror
I go to offer some words of encouragement
But my reflection hits harder than the words
In my control

They say that
A picture speaks a thousand words
The sun in my skin has faded
My hair flat and dull

How long have I been in my room
Watching
Trying to grow a heart strong enough to fight
Based on romanticized fiction
And achievable ideals
Where am I really
Standing here dripping
In hypocrisy
Who am I now
With crazed, shining eyes
Losing color through my tear ducts

I shift
In the puddle of paint
Crusting around my ankles
And pick at the flakes
That scale my jaw
It works like rusted machinery now
And no ones handling
The upkeep
For anything less than my very best

Depreciating and decaying
Every year
Until I pass as abstract art