Alexander T

Alexander T Oct 2018

days and nights
thery're all the same
pain, pain, pain
same, same... same

it makes no difference
walk or run
awake of asleep
maybe even,
live or die

...

days and nights
I think of you
love, love, love
us, us... us

you are the difference
calm or happy
smile or laugh
maybe even
live my life

this is the one, this is the girl

#love #difference

Alexander T Oct 2018

silence

you are the kind of unnoticed excellence
that carries around people,
every day
accidentally overlooked
my buried jewel
you may not be flawless
but you're still so perfect

#love #perfectflaws #silent #beautiful #excellence

Oct 2018

lovelywildflower

Through All This Agonizing Pain

All I know is
through all this agonizing pain
You look at me
with good intentions
You care about me so much
And you're a good friend
My best friend

All I know is
through all this agonizing pain
the smell of you emanating from your sweatshirt I'm wearing
calms me like a cigarette would calm an addict
I'm like a person who relishes drugs
Except you're my drug
And you won't end up killing me

All I know is
through all this agonizing pain
your hugs pull all my broken pieces back together
and although I just end up falling apart again
You're always there to help me

All I know is
through all this agonizing pain
I love you
And just the sound of your voice
your smell
your touch
anything about you
heals me
And you don't even know that
do you?

#pain #you #love #heal #okay

Alexander T Oct 2018

my mirror

who is that
staring at me

she is so ugly
he is too fat
not even all that smart

I can hear the words,
"you aren't worthy"
"you aren't sorry"
"keep the blood coming"
and worse

nothing is a surprise anymore
nothing wants to be seen

it should have shattered
it should have broke
seeing so much pain
it leaves me in pieces

Sometimes I feel like this, so I decided to put it in words a month ago. And I know I'm not the only one who feels like this.

#mirror #reflection #reality #truth #pain #shattered #broken #sad

Alexander T Oct 2018

Can I do anything to help?

these thoughts in my head
theyre destroying me
painfully

I wish it was slow
so I have more time

I am losing it
I hate this
I am trying
bit I am failing

she is hurting
and I cant do a thing

maybe I should just accept that
that could be the answer
but I have to help
I cant leave yet

I cant leave her
she is the one

I would give her my life
so she could be happy
but I know that wont happen

I am at a loss of words
I dont know what to do

I hope you feel better
I hope I can help you
because you helped me

for anyone

#love #help #feelbetter #pain #destroyed #accept