I dont have crushes
Ever since a man thought it was alright to grab my legs
I haven't been able to look at any guys the same
Ever since a man twisted my reality
and told me it was fine if he touched me
I can't picture any guy holding me
So I'm sorry when you talk about how you like him
I can't really relate
I haven't had a crush
Since I was *****

I shouldn't be here,
I shouldn't be here,
I shouldn't-

I can't think straight and you're talking a mile a minute,
All I can focus on is the untouched books hanging on your wall.

I can't handle this,
I can't handle this,
I can't-

You got closer and I was still shaking, my body silently screaming to feel your skin graze against mine.

What am I doing,
What am I doing,
What-

Your pupils dilated and your hands became unsteady as they studied the softness of my lips to the warmth in between my thighs.

Oh god
Oh god
Oh-

After all was said and done, you told me it was getting late.
Oh, how I must of forgot that this was all for fun.

It didn't matter to you,
It didn't matter to you,
It didn't-

Sometimes
the bloodiest battles
with the greatest number
of
casualties
are the ones
fought within
the confines
of our own
warring
souls.

He told me,
"when I see your pretty hips
I want to be in between them, looking up at your pretty lips"
              I told him,
"I'd rather **** myself,
So go **** yourself"

RKT