discard me, darling.
I'm water-damaged,
torn
and not worth much.

Let's go to the mountain top
and scream
and scream
until the sorrow in our voices
is no more

I don't want to go home
don't make me go home
I'm trying my best
but failing
I can't stop crying
I'm so scared
please don't make me go home
I don't want to go home


but I have nowhere else to go.

Hold me till I fall asleep
so I can feel you
and maybe see you
in my dreams
so as to be protected
from the nightmares

Broken heart from birth
Lips are blue
Gasping for air
Breaking the bones
Building the chambers
Trying to repair
All is not lost
Fighting to live
In constant despair
But time moves on
And it never waits
Time moves on
While the health deteriorates
Inside my chest
I already carried three hearts
I hope this one
Lasts longer than the last
I have fought against death
Some how made it back
The endless pain
So many scars
You may think I'm broken
But I am far from that

I fell in love with the girl in my dreams
then one day I manage to learn her name
We talked and laugh and this time I was awake
from then on things would not be the same
I know I was madly in love, but I cant say the same for her
I fought so hard to make it work
but thing just then began to change
instead of love, I felt pity from her
instead of smiles I received sorry stares
My life began to fade away
and with it her love
I had to walk away
never to hear from her again
but now I still find the girl in my dreams
and it hurts so bad when I'm awake

Can you tell?
That my heart has grown cold
That my scars are now more
And the pain cannot be muffled
That I have drowned my self in pain pills
And yet pain is all I feel
Can you tell?
I’m not the person you once knew
Called out to God while I was dying
Yet God did not answered
I begged for death
While my chest was still open
Yet its forgiving embrace never came
Can you tell?
That all these things torture me, every day
    
                                                        OterHead­