and all the times I've wanted to truly apologize seem to escape me.
this new year consists of one true apology told to someone who
deserved nothing less
and everything inside of me just wants to say it again
and again
and again--
for those who I've hurt, I'm trying with every fiber of my being to not make excuses anymore for all of the pain I've caused you. whether or not you all read this, just know that my intentions to apologize were never malicious and i never wanted you to feel like you'd have to forgive me for the things I've done. i have many apologies to say, and i don't blame any of you for not wanting to hear them or to even give me the chance to say them aloud, but i thank the one who heard me even when i didn't deserve it.