for those who I've hurt, I'm trying with every fiber of my being to not make excuses anymore for all of the pain I've caused you. whether or not you all read this, just know that my intentions to apologize were never malicious and i never wanted you to feel like you'd have to forgive me for the things I've done. i have many apologies to say, and i don't blame any of you for not wanting to hear them or to even give me the chance to say them aloud, but i thank the one who heard me even when i didn't deserve it.