I kind of want to invite you over
I kind of want to write some of my feelings
I kind of want to pop this xanax and forget my feelings
I might just call my ex out in Vail
I might just invite you over
I might just say ******* all its over
I'll stop before I'm ahead
I'll stop so just go on and get ahead

i love you
I'm literally talking about you
if your a human being on this earth
on this website
reading these words
that i typed
i love you
you're so special
your skin is silk
your face radiates beautiful light
your smile is not overlooked it is appreciated
your voice soothes
the universe loves you and i love you
spread love not so it comes back but so someone else can have it too

I got the closure I've been asking for
I cried a while
I'm in the middle of transitioning and I really didn't even have a comfortable spot to cry it
So I sat in the bathtub- cup of tea in hand
and I cried
And then I got up and I went and conversed with my parents and I smiled and I laughed and I loved them
and you can stop me from loving you but you can't stop me from anything else
So moving forward is the easy part
its looking back that gets hard