I saw a picture of you and me together, And I realized that I'll never hold you like that again.
You'll never be there to hide my pain behind violent bouts of laughter; Your warm neck will never offer me comfort anymore.
Of course, I was sad, But then I wondered, why? Why should I be sad when you're not here? When you don't exist anymore? When all the atoms that made up you are in the mud Just like you wanted?
Of course, you didn't deserve to go, But then I wondered, why? Why should you not go to the place where we all will be eventually? When that is where you were gonna end up anyway? When you knew that you had someone to love and be loved by Just like you wanted?
Of course, everyone tells me it's okay to grieve, But then I wondered, why? Why should I be sad about something I knew would happen? Something that I had been preparing for? Something that would take all your woes and miseries away Just Like You Wanted?
Death isn't a part of life; life is the wonderful journey that we take in our own separate ways, and death is the common destination.
I got the closure I've been asking for I cried a while I'm in the middle of transitioning and I really didn't even have a comfortable spot to cry it So I sat in the bathtub- cup of tea in hand and I cried And then I got up and I went and conversed with my parents and I smiled and I laughed and I loved them and you can stop me from loving you but you can't stop me from anything else So moving forward is the easy part its looking back that gets hard