Here I present to you
A single deck of cards.

I cannot tell you
which card is on top
nor the second, nor third.

But if we flip one over,
One by one,
And stack them into a new deck,
soon we will know the face
of every single card.

So let's take some time to wander
through these dark, dreary places
And we'll sift through these cards,
Jacks, Queens, Kings, Aces.

Rage consumes my soul like storms rising tide.
Angry waves constantly beating any hope of being…
God lost my blueprint to life it seems.
A thousand times I shout….
My lungs bleeds for me to stop…
A million times my fist hit the walls…
But still the rage continue to surge
I cling to the last thought that made me feel ….worthy….
Like an infant clinging to it’s mother in times of uncertainty…
As it endlessly battles the demonic darkness within me…
Clinging to life as I once did.
A ****** battle…..an internal struggle…
Do I just let go and let this raging monster within consume me?
I choose to fight!
Slowly a voice rises from the ashes of my charred soul….
Louder it grows…pounding away….
Drums of a battle on the brink of victory…
A piercing light rises within
As a phoenix rising from the ashes ....
reborn,
drenched with the possibility of a new tomorrow…
A smile slowly creeps across my lips…
Like a new life rising from the dirt.
It’s then that I realize....
I’m alive!!

Slowly it draws every last breath
every step  that we take
moves us closer to death
this truth we have to face
no matter what the evidence
it's an open shut case
live with no regrets
because your life you cant retrace
in this life we have a stake
live life to the fullest
no matter the odds or mistakes.

Run like there's no tomorrow
Cry only to alleviate sorrow
Live like our time is borrowed
lets not cower
take this life by the neck
imprint you are not a coward
the hurt makes us stronger
punch with everything you made of
even sorrow we devour
churn it in our soul
then spit out flowers
let your flamed courage bring forth the rain
let it descend
It's a meteor shower
let this winged words take you higher
soar above the chaos
i bet life will seem brighter
we are all born as fighters
its for us not give up
in this world
with all the power.

Serene words
are like good seeds
planted in the mind.
Watered by the smile
that will bloom for miles.

I look for blue sky like the caged for freedom
Emotions of deep regret pours to poison my weak existence
How do I fight these poisonous demons
These demons caged singed to my broken past…
Is there truly solace for the weak
My battles scars screaming my name from my subconscious mind
Bleeding from my dreams….
Am I truly free or will the curse of friends lost befriend my shadow for eternity
Have I not given enough
These darken thoughts a constant reminder of who I truly am…
I am…
I fought with a scythed blade forged with the love of family
Like the shining light of ten thousand fire flies your smile lifted me from me
You… are my guiding hand from this bottomless existence
With every breath I take,
I pledge to you my past and present lives
You are my savior….my eternal love
My salvation

I know what I am to become.
Revel in the gazes casting me insane
Only I have seen the future from the pavement,
hidden like a painting stolen from its frame

This is my autobiography!
A fluttering, open book caught up in the wind
Telling my story faster than it can be written.
A thriller all the way until the end