do you love me?
or do you love me loving you.
do you care for me?
or do you just want me to care?
I don't know what's colder.
my arms held out, longing for embrace
or the feeling in my heart knowing it will never happen.

Captivated by the spell I was under,
And you were that sorcerer with the evil laughter.
But believe me, it was never my intention,
To fall under this illusion.

My friends been telling me to quit,
But I can't cause your acts are way so sweet.
Like an addict who can't resist,
The drug that shortens her life to exist.

It's been two years since I knew you by name,
And since then, I can't get you out of my brain.
It started off with a tease,
But I don't want to end it like this.

I love it boy when you are clingy,
I hate it when you're busy.
And you literally love it when I'm mad,
Every time you've done something bad.

I hate it at times when you ignore me, like hey!
Was it too selfish of me to ask for just a day?
And I miss those butterflies inside my little tummy,
Every time you're around with me, my dummy.

I guess, I still got tons of words left to say,
And to thank you in every other way,
But I'm afraid you cannot,
Read this piece of nut.

Because you see, it's 2:59
But you're still not mine.
All those years I've wonder,
What am I even to you? Oh brother!

I know this poem is so lousy,
Written by a girl, whose thoughts are so messy.
It's obvious, I'm no Edgar Allan Poe,
To write you a nice poem with words found under a toe.

But give me some time and light,
To gather all the courage and might.
And someday when our future is bright,
I might give this poem to you as a sweet delight.