every time i imagine your name
or your face,
or any daydreamt aspect of you
interacting with me,
instead of your name,
i will think,
"for what?"
and i think,
it's better this way,
~for both our sakes

was it how you made me laugh,
or how that laughter decimated
my sense of uncertainty
and lulled me into a temporary constant,
where,
in my ignorance,
a real version of me
fell into a faux version of you.

there was
one version
of you
who wanted
a version of me;
it was only ever
in moments
like the one where
you let me invade your
dreams,
the same way you wriggled your way deep into
my subconscious thoughts. there was
one version of you
who wanted a version of me
~but not the way that i wanted you to~

Come look at my face
Tell me that I'm falling from my grace
If I stay awake
I'll be inside watching all the
The ashes burning down
So I'm sleeping here from underground
A prayer
A savior
Fulfilling my favors
I need some help right now
The world is getting way too loud
I don't wanna keep on living in hell
I don't wanna keep on living in hell
Shield away my kind
Knowing that I'll step out of my line
Trying all the time
To kiss up to a monster that still holds on to my neck
It tells me I'm a ******* wreck
A prayer
A savior
Fulfilling my favors
I need some help right now
The world is getting way too Loud
I don't wanna keep on living in hell

like in those cinema movies
baby shot right through me,
swear to god he knew me
*******, got to me,
I was raised on running and
you slow me like Ativan,
I'm never gonna let you go
I already told you so
you're sweeter than honey and a heavenly kiss
Bonnie and Clyde would've never done this
I know that it's killing me slowly
I want you to hold me,
I know that you're trouble
but I could take it double,
I was raised on running and
you slow me down like Ativan,
I'm never gonna let you go
I already told you so
you're sweeter than honey and a heavenly kiss
I'm never gonna let you go
I already told you so
you're sweeter than honey and a heavenly kiss
Bonnie and Clyde would've never done this

do you see what I see
when I look in the night sky
stars and comets that are so free
but even they are very shy

every time I look at the night sky
I see the vast expanse of space
and think can i be that guy
just wanna see her face

peering into the darkness between the stars
I just think about whether you think about me
why the stars do not fall when I look at the sky
even then I could make a wish
to see your eyes are blue as the sea
how often do I feel like a spy
but for you it's only swish

Who am I? Someone that's afraid to let go, uh
You decide, if you're ever gonna, let me know
Suicide, if you ever try to let go, uh
I'm sad, I know yeah
I'm sad, I know yeah

I gave her everything
She took my heart and left me lonely
I think broken heart's contentious
I won't fix, I'd rather weep
I'm lost then I'm found but
It's torture being in love
I love when you're around
But I ******* hate when you leave

Who am I? Someone that's afraid to let go, uh
You decide, if you're ever gonna, let me know
Suicide, if you ever try to let go, uh
I'm sad, I know yeah
I'm sad, I know yeah