I found,
In you,
A room
I can
Never return
To.
A line
Of stars
Where the
Ceiling meets
The wall,
There in
The room
With the
Ocean town.
This refers to my childhood home. It discusses the impermanence of innocence, and the complete inability to return to it in its true state, but also the phenomenon of discovering love for someone who can reflect a feeling of safety and comfort that you experienced as a child. The room in my childhood home was lined with plastic glow-in-the-dark stars, and had a hand painted mural of a seaside town. There is a last verse, added a day after writing the poem, that I am not fond of, and so I took it out. But it reads:
"And like
The room
You seem
To fade
The more
I think
About you"
While technically relevant, the theme of longing and loneliness in the last stanza is not shared with the rest of the poem, and it was very obviously not written at the same time. However, the last stanza does bring up the interest fact that even though i will always have a positive memory of the room, and of her, considering happy memories is not always a positive experience because memories fade, and their perfection becomes forced, and people gain the ability to fall out of love when not exposed to it for long periods of time.
