“quo vadis, domine?”
i. you’re saint peter on a cross,
hung upside-down, staring at the
bright blue and if your arms
weren’t pinned to rotting wood
you’d reach out—
(petrus, dear petrus, why
hast thou forsaken me?)
there’s iron in your grip,
fingers curled in supplication
as you, the fisherman from Bethsaida,
bears only his own sins
the pain fades for a moment
under the sunlight and
you’d smile if your lips didn’t bleed
at the harsh stretch of skin
they poke your side with a spear,
but only red pours out and the
barren ground below you will receive
no nourishment
you are no god, no holy deity
walking to and fro amongst mortals
(O’ you of little faith, why did you doubt?)
martyr, martyr they’ll chime with each
bell toll, thousands of years from now—
long after your body has perished in
the valley between ***** and Gomorrah
you are simon peter, the betrayer, the liar, the
coward
you are oh so human, and the world will
never forgive you for it
bedrock, they’ll call you, and mean it
you’ll be hailed a saint and people will kiss
your bronze image, dust oil against leaden
feet and imagine that your gaze is not fixed
solemnly to the earth
(now, nothing but a false idol to some,
draped in velvet and handed a crown—
the rooster crows, and so god too will
denounce your existence)
peter's one of my favorite disciples so here have a poem about him
