I longingly thought of you,
but the memory of you has faded
slowly,
and led me away from you

I no longer remember
the shape of your lips,
nor the way your hands
moved when you talked

I am forgetting parts of you
with each lonesome night
I stayed awake without
your I love you’s

Wake up, go to school, get home, go to sleep
Every day, it's the same
At first, it was okay
It was normal
I'm not

Wake up, go to school, get home, go to sleep
It may seem dismal
These feelings
Not leaving
It grows

Wake up, go to school, get home, go to sleep
It's all going to be the same forever
Nothing ever gets to change
It just repeats
and repeats,
repeats,
repeats

I'm lost in this
Will anything change?
This repetition
Nothing ever changes

But
When it does change
Would I be able to cope?
Would I be able to accept it?
Would I be able to move on and forget?

All these questions and no answer
So the only thing I get to do is
Wake up, go to school, get home, go to sleep
Wake up, go to school, get home, go to sleep
Wake up, go to school, leave home, sleep forever

I want to let it go.
I want to pretend I was never there.
Pretend I didn't care.

I want to let it go.
I want to act like nothing happened.
Leave it as a gap and...

I want to let it go.
I want to scream each time I remember
That night in September.

I want to let it go.
I want it to be a part of the past
And let my new love last.

I want to let it go.

nobody told me how it'd be in the aftermath
how i'd miss you most as my friend
how my heart would ache for that connection
how i'd seek that out again and feel like i'm cheating

nobody told me how long it'd take you to get over me
and how i'd be ready sooner for a friendship than you

how i'd feel like a wreck one day and perfectly fine the next
the aftermath is a mass of emotions,
piled one by one on top of one another

but truth is,
i just miss you for you.