It's crazy how time flies
Now I'm beginning to realize
I may have run out of time
While I was trying to find
My own path in life
Hit the gym, got a job,
And started acting right
New, improved, and much better
Than you'd ever expect.
I thought I found a recipe
That would earn your respect

So I read and I read,
Small books and articles.
"How to Win Back your Ex"
I followed the guidelines
Pretty much step for step
And I would bet
From both our perspectives
They were all checked

• Don't respond to her texts
• You can't be friends.
• Have to cut all threads
• Let her rebound and Do Not
  -acknowledge the threat
• Get right in the head,
  -start rediscovering Jeff
• Let her see you fresh out the gym
  -all covered in sweat
• Live on a prayer it goes noticed
  -and now she's impressed
• Planting a tiny, uncertain speck
  -of doubt in her head
• Then when you're 100% ready
  -go ahead, get on the ledge

I know it sounds stupid
But I polished my shoes
Bought some cuff links
To throw on my suit.
Hoping you'd see me
And choke on your food.
Just so I can be the guy
That knows what to do
Runs up and saves you
Then secretly delivers
The poem he wrote you

Today I openly admit that I am an addict.
I've been Addicted to the sensation and lost in the lullaby.
I've watched my potential dwindle thin.
I've had an overwhelming desire to get clean but no drive to begin.

I've cried my nights away in a withdrawal of sorts.
I've given up on everything except my last resort.

My vice is the most expensive out there.
What does a life cost?
What does a wasted life cost?

The regrets of yesterday catch you faster than you can sleep them away.
When apathy runs deep in your veins.
Pulling at my last straw - my last tall claim.

Today I turned my life around.
Not just another nudge for me to yo-yo.
I've derived a focus and approached my limit.

I'll sweat blood until I'm free of this apathy.
A victim of my actions in this endless tragedy.


My name's Jack and I'm an addict.

Life is full of feelings
You later regret.
Oh! But know, that "regret"
Is one of them.

A complex web,
Fragility stitched.
It's the trap you made,
To eat you heart.

Blow it! Now!
Look ahead.
Oh! It's another trap,
Made of someone's web.

"Could easily dispose, I suppose..."

But just pray, I mean.."prey"

To be caught in the right web,
Is something worth preying for.

I don't want to be bitter
with walls as hard as steel.
I want to be the free spirit
that I truly am for real.

I like to love with all I have
and worry not of potential pain
so all those who have no love
have a chance to feel it again.

Kindness takes no effort,
and it comes from me with ease.
I can't allow myself to shut out,
all the people with these needs.

I could never turn my back
on all the broken hearts,
on all the lonely souls
who've had little from the start.

I'm not a person to be spiteful,
to feel vengeful or stay angry.
I like to forgive and forget,
and I like to make people happy.

I tried to build a wall,
but I could never let it stay,
as my heart is an open door
so I can give happiness away.

It's too painful to stay angry,
I'd rather smile all the time,
so to let go, it's necessary,
to embrace this happiness of mine.I don't want to be bitter
with walls as hard as steel.
I want to be the free spirit
that I truly am for real.

I like to love with all I have
and worry not of potential pain
so all those who have no love
have a chance to feel it again.

Kindness takes no effort,
and it comes from me with ease.
I can't allow myself to shut out,
all the people with these needs.

I could never turn my back
on all the broken hearts,
on all the lonely souls
who've had little from the start.

I'm not a person to be spiteful,
to feel vengeful or stay angry.
I like to forgive and forget,
and I like to make people happy.

I tried to build a wall,
but I could never let it stay,
as my heart is an open door
so I can give happiness away.

It's too painful to stay angry,
I'd rather smile all the time,
so to let go, it's necessary,
to embrace this happiness of mine.

I took a far peek at your seek
and glanced into your eyes
Eyes wide shut.
You  sunk me in and inaugurated me
I peep in slightly to  be magnified
Star gazing at life's mystery ,  
Your Sky is ever so gracefully true of mendacity
Taken away by your master mind
                                      sailed away majestically ,
Accompanied my heart of blue
I look up, the twinkles run my mind and anchored ,
Settled to disappointment too.
I wondered why so down while life waves aimed up hi
I conceived a facade love story that just began in my mind ,
will this nightmare end in horror or in sweet serenade.?
A  question that ignited our flame
searching and fouling out with words of shame
Attending to this nautical phase,  unquestioned !
Redirected attention and navigated back to my heart.
I sail away back to the start and peep in your telescope once more,
There i realized
Distracted with sparks and accumulated the mind with blind truth.
I fooled myself in falling in love with a fool  .