and I have this craving
for something I can't touch.

Cities and people and 3000 miles
and this cold ache in my muscles.

Did I forget to mention
that I need you?
You forgot to mention
that you need me too.

And I guess time wasn't on our side
assuming, of course,
that your side is mine.

Tonight I had plans
to study your voice and memorize
the exact color of your eyes.

Plans to lie in your arms
underneath the stars,
maybe sneak into your heart.

I didn't plan to sleep
because tomorrow I'll sleep in Boston
and our little chapter will be all done.

I'm already starting to forget
how your voice sounds,
and now I'll never find out.

But it's fine.
It's not like I even wanted
to say goodbye.

I'll love you forever
And I know that sounds foolish
I am just eighteen
I have no concept of time
What do I know about forever?
I'll love you forever
Even though, truthfully,
Forever scares me more than anything
And oblivion is terrifying
But doesn't fear teach you courage?
I'll love you forever
Even though I am young
And still have my life to live
This journey I'm on, I need to believe
You are part of me, aren't you?
I'll love you forever
Because you ignite my bones
And you allow my soul to shine brighter than every star in the galaxy
Isn't that the greatest kind of love?

I'm so tired
And I miss you
All I want
Is to kiss you
To be safe and sound
In your arms
Forever contained
In the simplest of moments.

Sadly, life must go on
And while my body
Goes through mundane
Everyday things
My essence
Is still preserved in the moment.

It is where my heart is
With you.

(Until we meet again)

Your eyes contain the sky
Vast swirls of blues and greys
Eternal, vital, powerful.
They can be
As clear as a summers day,
As clouded as a winter storm.
Before you I adored
Nature, the dark wooden forests
That trapped me.
But you are of a different kind,
Freedom in its purest essence
Never ending.
Your eyes contain the sky
And I've been falling for so long
That I can no longer remember
The feeling of being on solid ground.

At times it felt like
We were the only two people
In that darkened room
We were the only two people
In the world
At times when emotions ran high
When the story reached fever pitch
You would squeeze me
Hold me close
And bury your face in my hair
You would reassure me
Yet again that
You are always there
At times like these
The only thought
Running through my head was
"I love this boy so much."
It's true
I could never stop loving you
Even if I wanted to.

Last night
I hurt you again
Indifference is more painful
Than outright hatred
Last night
I cried again
I hate myself
For always doing this to you
Last night
You told me
Clearly with certainty
"I'm not going anywhere."
Last night
Despite everything
You pulled me in
And held me close
Last night
I realised
Just how much
I needed to hear those words
Last night
I think we both came to understand
Just how much
We need each other.