Within womb universe’s birth
nebulous placenta housed
seeds of life and white lily
billions of years in future

mid-wifery lady Madonna i.e. Gaia
twill abort... cancel... fail
cosmic amniotic fluid infinitesimal kernel
unknowingly intimated mother earth

giver of extant flora and fauna
unleashed after big bang cosmic explosion
galactic matter ala Jackson Pollack
across void

impregnating fecund celestial field
embryonic entities
germinating gamut multifarious
floral fauna spectrum

primordial soupy miasma
evolving millennial timeframe
distinct organisms **** sapiens
master exploiter oblate spheroid

usurped emiment domain
epitomized goddess of fertility
silent ovation humanity
predecessors ovulated

promulgating tentatively robust
quite pathological population
within clustered cloistered
substantial redoubts

mollycoddled, nursed  
swaddled by ancestral
gracias moma mia
figures, whose maternal role

guarded vulnerable progeny,
outfoxing invisible World Wide Web
building inexorably linked network
indomitable strength

against wild things
guaranteeing subsequent generations  
flourishing webbed unbridled success
prompted contemporary bipedal hominid

chance genetic dice throw
origin of species weathering travails  
horrendous maternal sacrifices
inducing  acknowledgement
unknown female forebears!

How can my head be filled up with everything but still feel like nothing

So ****** up that you need to take that blade to your wrist
Watching the scarlet blood fall down

Wanting more, dig deeper
  
Feel the soul, the life leaving your body

Someone comes..

Grips your soul pushes it back down leaving you in the white sheets trying to Throwing away the broken  

how come if you know you're loved still feel like ****..