i pull up my pants -
leg, leg, zipper,
buckle
.
the room heaves with me ,
a breath released
and a mind
unclear :
.
i don't know if
he made me bleed,
i don't know if he
even
would .
.
.
the sky looks yellow
as he walks me home,
but it's not:
it's blue
and the wind stings my
cheeks
.
we didn't have *** and im so glad,, in the reality where we did im sure ive killed myself