I thought I was on the right track
Turned away from that dark road
Hadn't looked back since
Yet
I never fully left
All I did
Was drift away for a while

I was fooling myself
"I'm on the up and up
I'm happy
I don't want to pop those pills
Everything's fine"
Lies
All of them

I tried to escape
Go to a couple places
Make a couple friends
Post that crap on Instagram
Make it look like I'm
Fine

Lies lies lies
I finally realize my lies
I can't stand to look in the mirror
Even more than usual
My face disgusts me
As I see not myself
But a loser

I don't want to talk
Eat
Write
Play
Listen
I want to sleep
Because it's as close to death
As I'm
Willing

She's a beautiful
Lustful
That temptress calls me closer
Every
Single
Night
And sometimes
I want to call her embrace
But I'm too much a coward
To walk into her arms

She invaded my sacred space
Somewhere I thought I was
Free
A place with memories
That bridge
With my name written on it
The bottom of that river
Blank
Waiting for my signature

I can't swim well
Not while
I'm being held up
By the one
That won't
Let me go

I didn't know it
We were just friends
Nothing more
Not lovers
Not significant others
But she
Was the one to save a sinner

Her golden hair
Draped down her face
Like rays of sunshine
Her hand
Grasping mine
Not letting me go
Holding on until the end of time
A forever

She loves me
And I her
She's the only reason
Why I can wake up
And love something
Everything

She's as bright as any star you'll find
That dark sky behind her
But when the morning comes
Her light does not fade

She is
My sunshine
And I
Am proud to call myself hers

Don't say goodnight, not yet.
Just stay with me
and say, "the night's not over yet."
continue to tell me silly things
that you're reading.
I know I'm not saying much
but I won't admit I'm feeling sleepy.

We started with keyboard taps and echoed laughter.
We opened doors full of nothing but matter.
I am so happy to be able to say,
I met this engaging boy.
Who stole my heart and filled me with joy.
He's never stung me,
or tore me apart,
but one thing he has done,
is find the way into my heart.

I wish I wouldn't bottle things up so often. I underestimate my feelings, and wind up hurting. It's truly the worst feeling of all, when the smallest of things end up breaking the bottle. All I want really is to express myself freely without overthinking everything that runs through my mind.

In my dreams
we're surrounded
at the bottom of the ocean
by a school of fish.
We're holding hands
and embracing all of it.
The light barley shining through
as the current indecisively moves,
The ocean may be deep
and sometimes spooky
but at least I'm swimming through it
with you.