Basking in strawberry moonlight
I look upon selene
And see your face
The air catches in my throat
I'm captivated by your grace
The thought of you
Infectious
It lingers in my mouth
Your taste
Terrifying and terrific
Terribly tantric
Tumultuous an tempting
This tempest
A torrent tearing down my walls
A Tsunami
Leaving bare
my soul
Is this true
Is it you
My goal...

Silently I stand
Surrounded in stoicism
Submerged in saddening sorrow
Saddled by stacking sour and soulful screams
This pressure building heavier
Yet I endeavor
I carry this weight
Always knowing
The load I bear
Will at some point
Give way
Releasing a cavalcade
Of despair
My life has not been easy
Albeit easier than others
This pressure grows on you
Sometimes so much it smothers
And covers
The screams
That replace my dreams
That shine
In my eyes
Over time
It has died
All that's left is grime
My eyes
An everlasting echo
Etched into everything
I've ever erased from memory
A cliche I'll enter
I hurt myself
To make sure I can still feel
I meet love head on
Full of zeal
Incessantly inquiring for that iconic
And inspirational ideal
But to no avail
My heart seems
At least to me
A fun thing
For people to step on
I rush to aid the ones
Who remind me of myself
Because for me
No one cared
No one dared
So maybe I should
Maybe I could
Offer my opinion
Grant a little guidance
My lack of direction
Makes me a foul figure
To follow
So my advice is unheard...
I apologize for this dump
Recently I've been in a slump
Just wanted to say this stuff
And also ask the world
****,
When have I given enough?

Dot dot dot
Three periods
Ellipses
It means I don't know what to say
I've left a lot of conversations
In just this way
I read people
Sometimes a little too well
And this pause
It fails to quell
This storming tide
Tempestuous in its turmoil
Tilting and tottering
As my heart is tossed around
Tiny tears trickling toward a sound
Slowly smoldering
Shouldering a stupendous
Shockwave
Electricity
Looking for the ground
For days I've tried to be there
For days I'm met with silence
For days I've been scared
Because it seems
Like no one cares
I'm languishing
I'm low
Lost in a listless lilting
Heart is wilting
And it feels like I'm growing cold
I hope I'm wrong
I hope I'm just crazy
But in my experience...
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